Shahroo Izadi

becoming attached to someone and thinking that more is more and thinking that um extremes and dopamine hits and feeling anxious and then feeling relieved and then feeling anxious and then feeling relief is something that will play out in different domains of my life because it's the way that i'm wired now of course there are different schools of thought as to whether i was born that way or whether i've come that way but from the behavioral side of it

That's just the way I'm wired.

And so more and more, what I wanted to understand is what's going on on the days where I seem to be able to be moderate in all of these areas, where I seem to be able to advocate for myself, to take a moment, to make a decision, like take a breath, to not be focused that someone's upset with me because I'm focused on something far more important here.

What's going on on those days?

And I realized that

There was a lot of alignment between that and what I was learning when I was attending meetings.

And these components were not just massively interesting to me, but also they were helping me enormously to give labels and understand, to find my people.

My people weren't in Weight Watchers.

I assure you my people weren't in boot camps.

And this all or nothing, one is too many and a hundred is not enough.

All these sayings.

I was like, hold on, hold on, hold on.

This is me.

This is me.

But I'm not using alcohol or other drugs.

I'm using food.

And so I started going to OA and still I had my resume.

And OA is obese.

Overeaters Anonymous.

I went to OA and more and more I thought, hold on, why is this not available to other people?