Shaka Senghor

It was a very expensive project.

And I'm working with this team who I believed in, they were capable, and unfortunately just couldn't deliver.

And I should have just stopped the project.

But I kept going to the end, cost the company some money, cost some time.

And I remember talking to the CEO, and we had a very kind of just like a debriefing.

And he walked me through kind of, you know, his process of like, what could you have done different?

What would you do?

Et cetera.

Right.

And it was a very thoughtful, very prolific, very intentional way of like assessing how do we just get better, faster and more productive.

And I remember just being seized up with this feeling of like,

Man, I failed, you know?

And what I did, which is one of my superpowers, is my ability to go back and write about what was the real feeling there?

What was really coming up for me?

The real feeling was attached to my childhood.

at a time where somebody who our family trusted attempted to molest me.

And as a kid who didn't know what to do with the feelings of anger, I responded by breaking into this guy's house with the attempt to destroy his home and just say, hey, what you did wasn't okay.

And I got caught by the police and I got arrested.

And my mother and my father, they thought that I was just on some type of bad behavior experience.

But there was a deeper thing that had happened and I hadn't talked about it.