Chapter 1: What is the main topic discussed in this episode?
Welcome back to the School of Greatness.
Chapter 2: What personal experiences shaped the guests' views on freedom?
We have a very special episode with two inspiring men with two different yet very similar stories, Shaka Senghor and Christian Howes, two men who learned how to rewrite their story and find purpose after time spent in prison. Shaka is a New York Times bestselling author, internationally recognized speaker, and leading voice on resilience and redemption. Christian Howes is my brother.
He is an award-winning jazz violinist, a composer, an educator, and an inspiring teacher. Today, they're going to share their stories.
for anyone who's feeling trapped physically mentally emotionally or spiritually and you feel like you can't break free within your own mind in your own heart or in your body this is the episode for you it's all about how to become a free human being we've got two amazing individuals on here who are going to be talking about their experience from overcoming so much
before prison, during prison and after prison and there's so much that the world does not know about on what you guys have gone through and how you've overcome the lives that you've had and there are a lot of people, Shaki, you talk about this that there are a lot of people that are imprisoned who are actually not in prison. Yeah.
And they are living an imprisoned life even though they're not behind bars and yet Both of you were behind bars and I think both of you became free at some point in your own minds behind bars but you've also been prisoners outside of bars. Absolutely. And so, I want to start with a quote from your book Shaka and then let you guys open it up from here.
This quote says, prison is designed to break you. The walls, the rules, the routine, it's all meant to strip you down until you forget who you are. but what I discovered is that the most powerful prisons aren't the ones made of concrete and steel. They're the ones we carry with us built from grief, anger, shame, trauma, and self-doubt.
And I'm curious, how have you learned and how both of you learned how to overcome the prisons that you created within yourself outside of prison or that you started?
That's such an incredible question. You know, when I think about my journey to actual physical incarceration, where I spent 19 years, seven years of those was a solitary confinement. What I discovered through that process of freeing myself was that I had been incarcerated before I had ever been in handcuffs. because I inherited a narrative that said, you'll be dead or locked up before you're 21.
I was sentenced to prison, I was 19 years old. So I fulfilled that prophecy that I thought about. You manifested what you thought. Absolutely. And the negative, right? It was like this whole thing that, oh, my life can only have this outcome. So let me just live within the framework of that mindset. Interesting. And it was when I was in solitary confinement that I went on this journey
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Chapter 3: How did journaling and creativity help in overcoming trauma?
And that's where I found myself getting free. When did you first fall in love with your mind? How old were you? I would have been at that point, probably 27 or so. I was in solitary. So 1999, 2000. And it was through the journaling process. And I found this incredible human being who had been covered up by trauma, shame, grief, all the things, anger, the things, this cloud that I carried around.
And I found myself working through that cloud. And I was like, oh, this beautiful human being exists. And if you can embrace this human being, this little boy who had all these dreams and desires, Like you'll never be, you know, held captive by anything. And that's when I began that journey. It was the most, it's the most beautiful. My mind is the most beautiful place that I exist in. Wow.
Wait. So for those that don't know what solitary confinement actually is, maybe they have a conception of what it is. Explain what it is for people that have no clue.
So solitary confinement is 23 hour lockdown every day in the most chaotic, barbaric, inhumane environment imaginable. It is the one thing in America that I don't think people are even aware of the brutality that exists in that environment and what it's designed to do.
It is literally designed to break a human being and to ensure that when you leave there, any semblance of humanity no longer exists. And to be able to discover my own mind in that environment was both survival, but also a spiritual reckoning that, you know, I'm fortunate I was able to go into solitude inside of solitary. Wow.
Which are different things, which is that internal journey that I was able to go on.
But after seven years, how do you find peace within solitary confinement? There's no mentors, there's no art, there's no music, there's no creativity around you. How did you create that within you?
Well, I was really lucky. I think that there are spaces in the world where if you inhabit them, You may be lucky, right? So if you live in a certain area code, that can be a matter of luck. If you're born with the genetics of LeBron James, there's a physical luck there, right? That you can't script that.
My luck that I was actually literate in an environment where the average literacy rate is third grade. And so I was able to read stories of other people who had triumphed over hardship. I was able to read fiction. I was able to read autobiographies and philosophy. And so those things just kept my mind moving forward.
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Chapter 4: What are the hidden prisons we create in our minds?
And I think there can be times just like in prison where we're up and where things are feeling good and then there can be a downturn. So I'm 53 now. I've been out of prison almost 30 years. And so even now at 53, I'm like, hey, where are we going next? How do we keep it moving positive?
So the same thing, really, to be honest with you, it's like all the things that you share on your podcast, these are the things that inspire me. Constantly trying to look for what can I do to feed my body, my knowledge of psychology, my emotional intelligence. and building healthy relationships.
I mean, you know, not everyone watching this or listening has been to prison, but I'm assuming everyone watching or listening has experienced some type of shame or guilt or grief in their life or resentment or anger. They've experienced similar emotions. But how have each one of you learned to heal from
shame, guilt or trauma that occurred either before prison, in prison or sharing your story after prison. How have each one of you learned or are still learning how to do it? And not feeling ashamed every time you walk into a room.
Yeah.
Does someone know this about me? Do they not know this about me? Should I say this? Should I not say this? Like how to not feel ashamed about who you are and what you've been through.
It's such a great question. And one of the things about shame, I actually write, there's a chapter I write about this feeling, right? And actually it came from my work out here in society, working the regular job like most people are doing. And I remember I had this moment where a project was handed to me. It was a very expensive project.
And I'm working with this team who I believed in, they were capable, and unfortunately just couldn't deliver. And I should have just stopped the project. But I kept going to the end, cost the company some money, cost some time. And I remember talking to the CEO, and we had a very kind of just like a debriefing.
And he walked me through kind of, you know, his process of like, what could you have done different? What would you do? Et cetera. Right. And it was a very thoughtful, very prolific, very intentional way of like assessing how do we just get better, faster and more productive. And I remember just being seized up with this feeling of like, Man, I failed, you know?
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Chapter 5: How can we transform our relationship with failure?
Like this is another theme that we address in this film that I made. And where it's like this idea of PTSD, right? Like I went to see a therapist or I heard about this thing called PTSD. And I was like, well, what is it? And I was really, cause you just hear the initials and you're like, I don't know what that means. It's a condition, right? You don't really understand.
Well, post-traumatic stress disorder, basically the way it was explained to me, it's like, I asked my therapist, it was like, is it, do I have PTSD? And he was like, well, wait, so you spent four years in prison? He was like, well, yeah, that would be a good reason to have it. And, but he broke it down to me. He said, PTSD is stress.
Something if you've found yourself in a lot of uncertainty and a lot of fear and a lot of anxiety. But what I'm saying is that I don't think I'd given myself permission to acknowledge that I had been afraid. I think it's like taboo to say I feel fear. Again, this is part of what I admire about you, I think, is like you're a very strong man. Yeah.
who also names all these different emotions complex emotions and provide a model for how and you too yeah you know what i mean and this is like your book the mask of masculinity i think deals with a lot of these things so i try to be constantly surrounding myself with education and inspiration you know stories and uh and of course i keep trying to be engaged in all the other
work of being present in my body, present in my emotions, meditation, all these things. But I think it starts with naming these things and making it less taboo to be able to talk about, as men, all these different feelings that we have. First of all, if we say, I feel grief, that's the starting point. To say, I feel fear, I feel shame, I feel guilt, it has to start there.
On a scale of 1 to 10, how much shame do you still feel from your past pains? Whatever it might be, whether it be jail time or stuff before, whatever it might be. 10 being the most amount of shame, 1 being the least amount of shame. So that's part 1. 1 to 10, how much shame do you still feel? And number 2, how do you process the shame now, if there is any,
to not be so extreme or so intense in your body or your mind to hold you back from living the life you want.
That's a powerful question. I think in my journey, what I know with certainty is that it's been a sliding scale. Of course. And I didn't realize this until I actually began to write about shame, that environmental factors oftentimes dictate how we feel about ourselves. Mm-hmm.
Growing up in a city like Detroit, where the impact of the war on drugs was very present, a lot of people were incarcerated, a lot of people were shot and killed. The understanding of that environment in my community saying, hey, we understand that you went through this thing, but it's not who you are today, kind of lessened that feeling.
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Chapter 6: What role does forgiveness play in personal healing?
Oh, it's fine. Yeah. When I first got out, um, I remember I applied for this thing to go to, um, some teaching and, And it was like a music slash whatever. And I proposed. I said, I'm going to talk about, you know, like drugs and I'm going to talk about, you know, try to impart some of these messages to encourage kids.
And some of the feedback I got from this particular application was like, no, just stick with the music. We don't want you to talk about this other thing.
but um i don't know maybe that made you feel shameful who knows you know there could have been a lot of different factors i mean the fact is right now i'm i'm wanting to lean more back into this because i sense that it is it's important for me to develop it's important for me to lean into it as opposed to away from it and recently i've reconnected with um re-entry communities
And that's been really inspiring because I feel like when I'm in a room, in that room with formerly incarcerated people, I feel like I belong in that room. I feel like there's a way that I can be authentic that I don't always feel in any other spaces.
Even just like connecting with you, you know, before the show, there's just a, there's a sort of understanding and a feeling of being seen for who I am and a feeling of not needing to be ashamed actually. Yeah. And so I, so I think that. Why is that? I don't know why. do you know what, I mean, well, when we're in prison, I think you do learn to see the prisoners as being human. Yeah.
And when I first got locked up and you went for drugs, right? Yeah. It was a drug charge. Yeah. It was a trafficking LSD. And, uh, When I first got locked up, you know, we came from the same family. And I was on full scholarship at Ohio State University at the time. And I had been identified as, quote, unquote, academically gifted and all these things.
And a lot of people thought that what I did was kind of like didn't really count as a crime. It's kind of like, but it did. But that was like an old narrative. It was like, oh, it's just drugs. Yeah. And so when I went in, I kind of had this narrative inside that was like, well, I'm a drug dealer. And I think you see a lot of this in prison. Oh, absolutely.
People are like, well, there's a hierarchy.
You're always trying to say, I'm not as bad as that guy.
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Chapter 7: How do we define and pursue our purpose after incarceration?
And like that to me is rooted in, you know, this question that I get often of like, how did you become so resilient? And I'm like, I didn't go in prison knowing I was resilient. It wasn't until I was in the story that I began to recognize this deeper part of what it means to be able to overcome adversity.
And that's what prison revealed to me about myself is that as someone who's had, I mean, just incredible amounts of trauma and adversity, I also have an indomitable will to overcome those things. And so those are probably the big key lessons. But I mean, like Chris says, there's so many more. When he was speaking about naming the things, right, I was really...
like, struck in my spirit by the idea of, like, fear. And something that's really interesting in society is we always talk about people who are courageous. But you can't have courage if you were never afraid. It's true. Like, if you're not afraid, then that doesn't require you to be courageous.
But if you've ever been courageous in your life, if you've ever done anything where you're like, man, it took courage to do that. That means that you had fear and you did it anyway. And so I live my life in that space of like going forward in spite of. And so that was great that we get a chance to name, you know, these feelings and these emotions and these thoughts.
And like, I'm just so grateful right now to be in conversation with you and learn from your journey. Likewise. To see where it's brought you and where it's taken you. So, yeah. It's incredible.
It's powerful. This is powerful. And again, for anyone watching or listening, I think anyone can relate to the feeling of not feeling free in their life at some point. And maybe it's right now in a relationship. Maybe it's in their career. Maybe they don't feel free in their body. They don't feel free in their mind. They feel anxious and stressed all the time.
And the goal is how do we create as much inner peace and freedom as possible to experience life to the fullest, have beautiful relationships, and feel joy as often as possible. Amen. And it doesn't mean we're not gonna experience challenges and limiting thoughts and grief and sadness and go through hard seasons.
But how do we not let those hard seasons turn into hard years and a hard lifetime and overcome them through grace? I'm curious, the synchronicities here are really cool. I didn't even realize you guys both went in essentially the same year and you're the same age until we got here earlier. But it's been almost 35 years since you both went in. Is that correct? Yeah. Because you're both 54.
You went in around 1920. 53. Sorry, 53. So 33, 34 years. Almost 34 years, right? Over three decades, three and a half decades almost since you went in. Yeah. If each of you could go back and talk to your younger self...
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Chapter 8: What are the biggest lessons learned from prison experiences?
And so to get the type of letters I get from the young men that I've met on this part of my journey, And how they say that one conversation helped them think about life differently, make different decisions. You know, it requires what's required to do that is a deep understanding of all those consequences. And you said something earlier that I love.
is that when you enter these spaces, you're not doing a scared straight program. These young men need to be loved straight. Like Jason Wilson, what he's doing, you know, it's like. Yeah. And acting eye to eye. Absolutely. Being vulnerable. Yeah. Yeah. So I think it works in that context because I've seen it work enough times. Okay. What about you, Chris?
What would you say? That resonates a lot. I think that I would say to that young man, I would name some of those feelings that he's feeling. And I would say, it's okay to feel those things. And it's okay to get help. And I would try to also point that young man towards the hope of... a positive vision for his life and all the joy and love and connection and purpose that he could tap into.
Cause I think he was missing all of that, all those things at that moment. Yeah. I don't know if he would listen if it was just one day, but if I, if I had enough time and if I could, if I could, you know, wrap around them and like hold them back from certain things that maybe it would have changed. I guess the challenge is, you know,
This is what, late 80s, early 90s? When was this? Early 90s. Early 90s? There was not even talk of therapy back then. That's the challenge. So it's like now guys know, they hear of it more. They see it more. If you would have said that word in the early 90s, they'd have been like, what? Like, that's a crazy thing. But it's more acceptable now. It's more talked about in culture.
You see pro athletes talking about it, artists. You know, you see other men that you might be inspired by talking about these things. But no one's talking about it in the 90s. Yeah. So... Who knows if you would have been receptive. I have no idea.
Maybe you would have.
But now these kids who are teenagers who are more open to it because they see men talking about it. They see Oprah talking about it with you. And they're like, oh, that's cool. That's interesting. It's not a shameful thing to talk about. Back then, it was very shameful. Oh, absolutely. So I think it's a challenge you guys faced culturally. Absolutely. In the early 90s. Yeah. That it was...
you couldn't show any other way than scaring people straight. You couldn't show vulnerability because there was no model of it that was acceptable. I mean, unless you guys tell me wrong, unless you saw something on TV where men were open and vulnerable and talking to Oprah and doing these things where they were like, hey, let's talk about our fears and let's talk about our shame.
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