Sheinelle Jones

But you know what's starting to rattle me a little bit is that they're all current pictures within the last couple years of the surfing and the soccer games and the weddings and the holidays and it's a beautiful montage.

But what's starting to rattle me is that as we move with each passing day,

He stays the same.

And I know that the kids are going to get older.

And so...

the frames are there, and everything is there, and the pictures are there, and right now we're all still the same.

But it's hard, because it sucks that he didn't get to, it feels like not a fair shot to keep going.

So I wrestle with it sometimes, keeping those things out, but then I'm like, no, we're gonna keep them out, we're gonna keep the pictures up, we're gonna still talk about it.

And I had to learn how to parent differently.

Because I'm not him, and he was strict, you know, and I'm like, eh.

So I've had to find that.

I remember early on, I said something like, your dad would not.

And then I realized what I was saying.

And I don't know, there's no template for this.

Should I not have done that?

Your father would have never.

Or is it, you know better, your father would have never.

I don't know.

And so I'm kind of living it in real time, how I want to parent.

And there are some things, though, that I can't.