Sheinelle Jones

make it make sense.

And so I'm left trying to figure out how to nurture their hearts.

There aren't a lot of resources and conversations and things like this, but it's part of the reason why I'm willing to sit and have this conversation because I couldn't find it.

I joked with Savannah that I went to YouTube and Googled Black Widow and I got spiders.

It was true.

I remember I was by myself

And I'm like, okay, who's been in this position before?

And I knew I had to deal with it publicly.

So I was like, okay, who am I gonna be?

I found videos of Jackie Kennedy.

And I remember watching her and being like, oh my God, how did she, she looks like she has so much grace and poise, like how?

And then I looked up like Coretta Scott King and I'm like,

Every time I closed my eyes and I pictured those women, they always had such grace.

I told my friend that, and he's like, I love Duce, but he was not Martin Luther King or JFK.

And I'm like, I know, but you know what I mean?

I was trying to find out who I wanted to be.

I think I mentioned it to Maria Shriver, who was like one of my TV aunties, like my Mount Rushmore of aunties.

And she said, you can only be you.

There are pictures all over the house.

We have one of those digital picture frames.