Shekhar Natarajan

So much so that I used to go into these exams and I used to basically start writing and I would never finish the exam.

The fear would just grip me.

Hmm.

It would say, oh my God, if you don't perform, you don't perform.

And so everything I write, I used to write a long essay for a short question.

And I never used to finish the exams on time.

And so I always never scored what I'm supposed to score.

I always fell below my expectations of who I am as a person because I put unnecessary pressure on myself.

So that used to happen a lot.

till i just broke out of it i don't know like how i broke out of it maybe that was my girlfriend who broke me out of it whatever happened um and then the second thing that uh basically happens with me quite a bit is when i'm growing fast right and um growing fast like you know you you you begin to sense validation you get like you know you you know people will begin to understand your vision

And then there's the rah, rah, rah that goes behind you saying like, oh, like Shekhar, you're great.

And then you're on high and you go up on the high and then like, boom, you fall from the high.

So I feel success.

Right.

I think like, you know, oh, being successful is the next thing I know is going to I'm going to be like, you know, falling like deep into the abyss.

I'm still afraid of success.

I'm still afraid of success.

So because I like to scrap myself out because I know when I fall, I can climb the hill.

Mm hmm.

And I love the climbing of the hill.