Shekhar Natarajan

For me, interestingly enough, there were two things and like, you know, I keep like, you know, now you can psychoanalyze me.

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There are two things which keep bothering me quite a bit.

Like, you know, growing up as a kid,

I always felt when I was going to school that if I don't perform as well, then I'm going to stay back where I actually started my life.

My origin is going to be destination if I don't perform.

That was the makeup of my mind.

And I grew up in slums in India, the second biggest one.

So I used to take on this extra pressure on myself, saying that, you know what, I've got to excel in my education because education is the only way I get the escape velocity in my life.

And that extra pressure used to basically manifest in weird ways.

I would go to an exam.

and I would show up with like you know like if you think like you know all these rings are pretty spiritual and other things it's just like you know I'm carrying these for different reasons now but I used to have more rings not like not the rings that basically you would think like you know

is something that is fancy, but it was out of fear.

If I wear a yellow sapphire, God is going to protect me.

If I wear this white stone, angels are going to sit on my shoulder.

And if I wear this religious thread, something is going to happen.

Now it's all fashionista.

But, so I used to believe so much, not in myself, but the external forces.

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