Siobhan McSweeney

But I do make sure I sort of go, well done, that was hard.

And I wouldn't have said that before.

I would have been like, oh, thank God I had the work.

I think a lot of it has been my recovery from my leg accident, where I had to start from such a basic place of not being able to do anything to recovering.

And so being able to mark achievements wherever I could.

I think also just a wisdom that comes with age as well, if it is a wisdom.

Maybe it's just a kindness.

I'm not as punchy as I used to be.

I don't feel like I have to fight every battle.

So I think that I'm allowing room for kindness in a bit more.

Pain does funny things as well because when you live with pain, which is not a world that I'd lived in before, when you're constantly in pain, but it just, your brain is so beautiful and fantastic and trying to protect you and your body is beautiful and fantastic and trying to protect you.

you, whatever you is, from feeling it or disguising it, or sometimes it's not that bad.

Do you know what I mean?

But when you get those sorts of things, you just, yeah, I think you hit on the word vulnerability.

You sort of, I'm kinder to my little body now because my little body did nothing wrong, has never done anything wrong.

And all it's doing is trying to heal.

And I'm kinder to myself when I get absolutely exhausted, which happens more and more and more now.

And I think because I had to, it was either that or be even more miserable in pain.

Or I could be like, it was something I learned from the accident.

Like even with arguments and stuff like that, I'm like, well, at the end of the day, if you had an accident, would that person drop everything, come running over, go to Dunn's and buy you a five pack of knickers and a horrible nightie because you can't put anything over your leg?