Sonia Gray

But in my heart, I knew that I'd pushed it.

And I, you know, sometimes there's a couple of things, like I'd got something, I hate getting anything wrong.

And I got something wrong with a guest.

Not a big detail, but they weren't happy and I had to change it.

And that guilt of that just was the tipping point for me.

Well, I think, I don't know.

I don't know.

My mum says that.

She's like, who are you?

I know you came out of my body, but after that, it's like... No, I'm just, I'm really intrigued as to what drives that in people.

Yeah, for me, I do think now that it is based on...

my ADHD.

And my earliest memory is of being two years old at daycare, which I was at just for a few hours a week and missing an instruction from the person.

Because, you know, I'm in daydream land, ADHD, I now know.

And just kind of going, oh my God, I can't trust my brain anymore.

And it must have been two and a half at the most.

So that's a really early memory.

That was almost the starting point.

And I always, you know, through my whole life, I've gone, I can't trust myself, so I've got to work harder.

I've got to be better.