Sophie Smith

And then...

And then I would realize... Obviously, I knew I was just pretending.

And then I'd kind of realized, you know, I think that I was never going to know the exhaustion of looking after three babies.

I was never going to hear three babies screaming for a feed.

I was never going to know the challenges of... I was never going to take them for a walk around the park.

And I...

And I knew that I couldn't keep pretending and that I couldn't change what had happened.

There was nothing in my power to change what had happened, but there was everything in my power to decide what to do next.

And that was a turning point.

And how did that turning point come?

Well, Ash, I didn't know how, but Ash and I would talk about them all the time.

We talked about, Ash was amazing.

Every day we spoke.

And every day, forever,

Ash, the last thing he would say to me at night was Henry, Jasper and Evan.

He would always... The last thing he'd say to me before we went to sleep was he would speak their names.

And so he was amazing and he helped support me.

Obviously, he was grieving, but he was an incredible support for me.

And we...

We always talked about the fact that we were still Henry, Jasper and Evan's parents.