Sophie Smith

And Owen was seven.

And I remember when I...

told Owen, I thought I was telling Owen, because he said, when's daddy going to be better?

When's he going to be better?

When could he throw us in the bed?

And I said to him, I sat him down and I said, darling, daddy's not getting better.

He's not going to get better.

And Owen looked at me and said,

well, he's going to be sick forever.

So I realised that that wasn't enough for a child.

They didn't join the dots.

But at that stage, Owen started to realise.

And I remember a few days later, he said to me, Mum, would you rather be sick forever or dead?

And it was the first time he talked about dying.

And then when I told Owen and Harvey... What did you say, by the way?

What's the answer to that?

Oh, I can't even remember.

I think we talked about quality of life.

But when I finally knew I needed to tell them, it was heartbreaking because Owen, he had, you know, I told him, Daddy's going to die.

And you could see how Owen was, he had a hundred questions.