Sophie Smith

I was on my own, and honestly, I can't even, I mean, there aren't even the words to describe the horror, the absolute horror

I remember when I was pregnant, a few weeks earlier, Ash had, as a surprise, had signed me up to this magazine from America called The Triplet Connection.

And it was some triplet family magazine of triplet families.

And anyway, this thing had arrived in the post and I'd ripped it open.

I was so excited.

I'm reading about all these lovely triplet families.

And then I got to this page in the magazine and it,

said in memory, and there was a page where I was reading about people who were pregnant with triplets and their babies had died.

And I sat there as I was reading this page and I wept for these women somewhere in America who had lost, whose babies had been born prematurely and they had died.

And not for one second had I thought

did I think at that stage, oh, I hope that doesn't happen to me.

It was just somebody else's tragedy.

And there was one story where I read that somebody had had their three babies and one had died at birth, one had died a few days later, and one had died a few days after that.

And I cried so many tears for this woman.

And I remember thinking, how did she survive?

I wouldn't survive that.

But I wasn't then scared for myself because that was just somebody else's story, my story.

I was pregnant, I was fit, I was healthy.

I was so proud about being pregnant with triplets and I was off doing, I was working and I was going to the supermarket and I was doing my thing.

in my mind, naive, call me naive, I just thought, you know, I knew that the babies would be born prematurely.