Stace Don

He'd make me eat cigarettes.

I had an eating disorder and he'd put food in front of me that I didn't like and make me sit there watching this food for hours and hours because I literally couldn't swallow it.

But he was friends with my dad.

So I lived with them for a while.

And then when I was 13...

Like my dad was in and out of my life coming to my mum's and then he wouldn't call me and then he'd turn up again.

And then when I was 13, my mum's partner said, I'm going to send you to live with him because I know he'll give you what for.

So when I was 13, I was sent to live with him.

I lived with him for like nine months and then he battered me, broke my ribs.

And then I went back to my mum's and then I ended up moving out again and then going and staying with a friend while I went through college.

And then he contacted me.

So he contacted me when I was 17 saying he'd done anger management, he'd done it with my siblings no more, he's got a wife, I've got another sibling and he wants me to go and visit him for Xmas.

But because he acknowledged the things that I didn't like about him, like when he put me in hospital and he broke my ribs, I thought he had changed.

He consistently punched me.

He pimped, like, so he told me to go upstairs and get my washing, and I went upstairs and there was no washing there, so I've gone back down.

And then he said, there is washing, so I've gone upstairs.

He told me to go back upstairs, so I've gone back upstairs, and there was pyjamas under my pillow.

but I got to wood I could wear them like two three nights and I'd only worn them one night so to me it's like they didn't need to go in the wash I just picked them up and threw them at me I've walked down the stairs and as you come through the living room there's a kitchen door here I got to the side of the kitchen door and he just grabbed me up against the wall and just started punching me in the stomach repeatedly I'm assuming that your mum and your dad's friend both knew that your dad had been previously convicted for raping a child before saying you can go and move with him because he'll give you what for

with great difficulty because it's hard not to judge my mum for a decision.

But since doing my book and hearing my mum's side of the story, I know sometimes, like, you go two ways, don't you?