Steph Claire Smith

And I ended up saying to him, like, I love you, but for me to like really like slide into this lifestyle and do my best here and like, you know, hashtag get successful over here or whatever, this is all really important to me and the people that I'm connecting with, like it's all really important or whatever.

And I literally said to him, I can't like cry myself to sleep every night.

And through having conversations with him, it would always like bring up so much and I would like get really emotional because I missed him.

And that was a hard conversation because he thought I was breaking up with him.

And I was like, I am not breaking up with you.

I have no interest in breaking up with you.

But this is really important to me.

And it's almost like taking me every single day when we have these conversations, it's taking me out of what I'm presently trying to do.

And just yearning to like be with you or be home or whatever.

And as much as I do want that, I don't necessarily need to be thinking about that or talking about that every single day.

Like it's exhausting.

And I want you to know that I fucking miss you so much.

And like it hurts.

And I love you.

but like please go and enjoy yourself and I will do the same.

And it didn't mean that we stopped connecting.

We still connected like every couple of days.

We might have called more like twice a week instead of every night.

And it just meant that we were able to just really embrace that phase of our lives where I was living independently overseas and he was travelling the world with his mates, having a ball, and still kept each other updated but just didn't have that like, oh, I've really got to call Steph now.

you know, got to make sure that, you know, we've checked in or whatever.