Stephanie Soo

I'm not sure they're considered real.

The clinician writes, what is real though is memory disturbance during trauma.

So she's just saying there's so much connotation with repressed memories.

We just call it memory disturbance.

Memories may be missing, they may be incomplete, they may be warped, and it's not that these memories are corrected in any way for you to remember, but the memories you do have will be associated with other memories and sensations and experiences that you already have on file in your brain.

Some of these memories can be surprising because you may not have thought about them in a really long time, and the emotions attached can be surprisingly intense.

So think of your memory like a computer.

It's not designed to pull things out of the recycling bin, but it does take all the junk that's sitting on your desktop and tags it with things, sensations, emotions, images that are related, and then they file them away properly.

So the way that they're explaining it is like, sometimes you will have this very specific experience trigger that file to be automatically opened.

Like a file that you didn't even remember you had.

And that is precisely what happens to Mary, repressed memories.

Before we get into it, a few really big disclaimers for this episode.

There are mentions of extremely difficult subjects like animal abuse, torture, and death, as well as child abuse, essay trafficking, torture, ritualistic abuse.

There are mentions of DV, essay, and intergenerational incest.

And lastly, there is a discussion regarding hate groups such as the KKK, as well as other violent ideologies.

Please pause the video whenever you begin to feel uncomfortable or need a break.

This is part one of a two-part series on Mary Knight, who is a survivor of ritualistic child abuse, and this is her quest to figure out if her memories are real.

This episode is going to lay the groundwork.

It's going to introduce you to some of the unbelievable, I mean, dare I say, professionals who have made it their life's work to discredit child abuse survivors, such as Mary.

And in the meantime, as you wait for part two on our series with Mary Knight, which is a really, really special passion project we're excited to show you,