Stephanie Soo

I highly recommend checking out Mary's memoir, My Life Now, and her documentaries as part of her own investigation to see if her memories are real, all of which is going to be linked in the description.

With that being said, let's get back to Mary and the False Memory Syndrome Foundation.

Mary says that she remembers when she was young.

I mean, this is really young.

She recalls wearing a white dress that would get dirty rather quickly.

She watches as she sees her dad hang a rope from a tree branch and her mom comes around and ties the rope around her neck.

There's other people there.

The first man holds Mary as a child and quote, does icky stuff to her.

She is in a lot of pain, but ultimately when he's

done he just looks at her like he almost did her a favor quote you were lucky i didn't drop you you know you would die if i did that's the look that he's giving her because she's being suspended in the air while he is abusing her and it's the rope is tied around her neck so if he did drop her it would have been very bad

Mary says that day there were other men in rapid succession of one another.

Each time she thought about dying and all she could think about was wanting her mom to take care of her and save her.

And this is like her primary feeling in this moment until finally the rope is cut.

She falls to the ground and the rope is like falling on her like a snake.

And as a final act of true untethered evil, they throw dirt on Mary before finally urinating on top of the dirt.

As Mary is laying there, she says again, she just wanted her mom to save her.

She writes in her memoir, if I just know that my mom cares about me, I will be okay.

But when she looks up and she sees her mom, it's like her mom is looking at a dirty animal and not even a person, not even her daughter, which at the time, Mary says that hurt more than with the men and the violence all day that happened.

Mary writes about herself as a little girl and she says, quote, the only thing the little girl looks forward to is being dead.

Eleanor Goldstein is a big member of the False Memory Syndrome Foundation, and she has her own book out, which is not the best read.