Steven

He started in the biggest city in the world.

He started in the biggest city in the world.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I found some wonderful photos of your childhood, which I adored. I got one of these photos. You probably recognize quite a few of them.

I found some wonderful photos of your childhood, which I adored. I got one of these photos. You probably recognize quite a few of them.

In November 2017, when she passed away, you said, as a tribute on The Tonight Show, which I watched, the best audience, referring to your mother, that she was the best audience, she was the one I was always trying to make laugh. Mum, I'll never stop trying to make you laugh. And I heard you talk about squeezing her hand three times when you were younger and her squeezing yours back.

In November 2017, when she passed away, you said, as a tribute on The Tonight Show, which I watched, the best audience, referring to your mother, that she was the best audience, she was the one I was always trying to make laugh. Mum, I'll never stop trying to make you laugh. And I heard you talk about squeezing her hand three times when you were younger and her squeezing yours back.

In a fraction of public attention I've experienced, one of the things that acts as an insulator to all of that for me is knowing that I have...

In a fraction of public attention I've experienced, one of the things that acts as an insulator to all of that for me is knowing that I have...

a home to return to and home for me isn't a place it's people you know yeah and that's the thing that makes all of the noise feel fake and like it's not real and that there is something real and so when i was thinking about all of that and you losing her and her being the audience her being home for you i i have to understand like how that changed you

a home to return to and home for me isn't a place it's people you know yeah and that's the thing that makes all of the noise feel fake and like it's not real and that there is something real and so when i was thinking about all of that and you losing her and her being the audience her being home for you i i have to understand like how that changed you

you know calling on my birthdays and you know it's just she's so much love she just loved me so much i do worry about i worry about this because i i think sometimes we don't realize the importance of certain relationships until we lose them and my parents are getting older and i think i have some kind of like subconscious existential fear that there will be words unsaid or i will i will learn the hard way that there's things i should have said

you know calling on my birthdays and you know it's just she's so much love she just loved me so much i do worry about i worry about this because i i think sometimes we don't realize the importance of certain relationships until we lose them and my parents are getting older and i think i have some kind of like subconscious existential fear that there will be words unsaid or i will i will learn the hard way that there's things i should have said

It sounds like you spoke to her a lot.

It sounds like you spoke to her a lot.

Were you able to grieve?

Were you able to grieve?

And if you harp on that, then it's too depressing. Did it change your perspective on your own work? Because it's funny. I remember thinking about my old business when it was like, it was my entire life. I was thinking if I lost this person in my life now, I don't know if my business would mean the same to me because in part I'm doing this for them.

And if you harp on that, then it's too depressing. Did it change your perspective on your own work? Because it's funny. I remember thinking about my old business when it was like, it was my entire life. I was thinking if I lost this person in my life now, I don't know if my business would mean the same to me because in part I'm doing this for them.