Suzanne Noble

And then we had this kind of relationship with this guy where we'd go off to clubs and things.

And I reflected on where I'd been, you know, that I'd been in this married person and I'd had kids and I'd done things.

fairly traditional stuff.

And I thought about all the things that I'd done since then and subsequent to then.

And I thought, if I don't write it down, I'm never going to remember it.

And even now, like when I talk to you, you're like, what have I done?

Some of it, you know, it was 20 years ago.

Some of it is like kind of fades into memory because I started to think about

when you get involved in it you know and i got involved i i had a tantra teacher and then i learned a lot about tantra i had a couple of tantra partners i had a dom partner who was really got me into kind of like bsm taught me about a little bit about pain pleasure you know i had the

The experiences with threesomes and with couples and with women.

And, you know, after a while, you sort of look at all of this.

And I guess it's a bit like when you've watched too much porn.

You do get to the point where one of the things that starts to stand out is the lack of intimacy, like genuine intimacy in these situations.

You sort of get to...

a point where you're just always trying to get to the next high.

You know, the next kind of risky situation, like how much can I go?

Can I do banks?

Can I do this?

Can I do that?

Um,