Tahlia Isaac

But it escalated.

And when it escalated, I did start to see consequence.

And when I started to smoke speed, then I lost friendships.

And then I lost my job.

Yeah, well, I went and I was using just the recreational drugs, broke up with my boyfriend and kind of spiraled out of control.

And I just stopped kind of showing up, you know, for my friends.

I like would disappear for weeks on end, you know, just like partying absolutely every day.

And they just wanted nothing to do with me because that wasn't how we were brought up.

You're too hectic.

It was too hectic for them.

They're going this, we don't like this.

So, you know, I think for me, I found a lot of value in my own self-worth in other people and how they saw me and how I was valued by them.

And I was also very avoidant in conflict.

So because I didn't have the language skills to articulate how I was feeling or what I was doing or why I was doing it.

And so I would just like cut people off.

And so I just basically cut everyone out when the speed entered my life.

Yeah, I mean, because those people were going to let me do the things and not confront me about my behaviour.

So my old friends, I cut them and new friends, I went to.

So yeah, it was like, it was...

You know, I think things happen, you know, and yeah, I don't think I ever thought, oh, this isn't good because I didn't have that reflective capacity.