Tahlia Isaac

I didn't have the ability to look at myself.

I just wanted to avoid conflict.

Um, it was definitely avoidant like attachment style because I just didn't have the language.

I just didn't know how to say, holy shit, I'm hurting.

I don't know how to get out of this.

No.

Bachelor of Business.

Not as smart as I used to be.

There's a few brain cells missing.

Yeah.

And at the start I fully spiraled.

Yeah.

So like lost all, all any, I could not hold a job anywhere.

Um, so like clubs just stopped like nightclubs cause I was a bartender.

I wouldn't turn up, would want to leave early cause I need to go get on or I've got, you know, just like totally didn't care about that stuff.

So I stopped working for a while.

But I did pick up work again when I started to become a more functional drug user because I wasn't getting high anymore.

After a few years, the high's gone and the staying up for days on end is gone.

And so that party sort of thing, it becomes more of an everyday.

You're using it to wake up in the morning, to feel normal during the day, and it all wears off.