Taylor

So I, he does.

So he, he does the, I guess the question I was more wondering of like, why did he do it then?

But why did he do it?

He, you know, like for trigger rooting for anyone who has gone through this, he unfortunately had a history of sexual abuse when he was a kid and a teenager for a while, for a long time.

So sex has always been something that's been very difficult in our relationship.

I will say that's the one thing that we have been trying to struggle with.

Um, so one thing he's found through therapy is that once he gets an emotional connection with someone, sex becomes a lot harder for him.

He feels out of control, feels like when it's with a random person, he can have sex, he can get up and follow through and it's great.

Like our sex life, when we first started dating, fantastic.

Then once we started having that emotional connection,

And I didn't know this at the time, but then it started coming, you know, then it started slowing down and getting a little bit worse.

So the whole thing is that he wasn't able, I guess the why is that's part of it, but obviously it doesn't excuse it.

I know.

I know.

I want to be empathetic.

I am empathetic towards what he went through.

Obviously, it just hurts.

I put a lot of pressure on myself to make a decision.

Yeah, yeah.

For sure.