The Host

I was so convinced I needed to have the perfect look, the perfect camera, the perfect sound. Everything needed to be perfect until I just felt this pressure of like a mountain of I didn't want to climb. I was like, I'm not interested. There is nothing that calls me to this. It feels like it's a prerequisite that I need to do these things or else like I am not in the playing field.

I was so convinced I needed to have the perfect look, the perfect camera, the perfect sound. Everything needed to be perfect until I just felt this pressure of like a mountain of I didn't want to climb. I was like, I'm not interested. There is nothing that calls me to this. It feels like it's a prerequisite that I need to do these things or else like I am not in the playing field.

I was so convinced I needed to have the perfect look, the perfect camera, the perfect sound. Everything needed to be perfect until I just felt this pressure of like a mountain of I didn't want to climb. I was like, I'm not interested. There is nothing that calls me to this. It feels like it's a prerequisite that I need to do these things or else like I am not in the playing field.

And when I kind of took a step back and I was like, wait a minute, I am I am doing way too much. Especially when it started to hinder my creativity, I didn't even want to pick up a camera because I was like paralyzed. I really went back to the drawing board and I'm like, is this even why I like to create? Is this really why I have an interest in connecting with people?

And when I kind of took a step back and I was like, wait a minute, I am I am doing way too much. Especially when it started to hinder my creativity, I didn't even want to pick up a camera because I was like paralyzed. I really went back to the drawing board and I'm like, is this even why I like to create? Is this really why I have an interest in connecting with people?

And when I kind of took a step back and I was like, wait a minute, I am I am doing way too much. Especially when it started to hinder my creativity, I didn't even want to pick up a camera because I was like paralyzed. I really went back to the drawing board and I'm like, is this even why I like to create? Is this really why I have an interest in connecting with people?

Or am I just like being OD with it? I was being OD with it. Spoiler alert, I was. And maybe there's something similarly in your life right now that you feel this way. Maybe you grew up playing a certain sport. Everyone has told you you're super good at that sport. But deep down, you know that You could care less. But it's that image, right? It's that image that you've been good at it.

Or am I just like being OD with it? I was being OD with it. Spoiler alert, I was. And maybe there's something similarly in your life right now that you feel this way. Maybe you grew up playing a certain sport. Everyone has told you you're super good at that sport. But deep down, you know that You could care less. But it's that image, right? It's that image that you've been good at it.

Or am I just like being OD with it? I was being OD with it. Spoiler alert, I was. And maybe there's something similarly in your life right now that you feel this way. Maybe you grew up playing a certain sport. Everyone has told you you're super good at that sport. But deep down, you know that You could care less. But it's that image, right? It's that image that you've been good at it.

You don't want to just throw that away. I get that. But if it's starting to impact your day-to-day and you are really feeling like you're kind of suffering through this and it's not fun, it's not enticing, and it's not a challenge that feels... like it is really developing you as a person, then why would you do it? Like why?

You don't want to just throw that away. I get that. But if it's starting to impact your day-to-day and you are really feeling like you're kind of suffering through this and it's not fun, it's not enticing, and it's not a challenge that feels... like it is really developing you as a person, then why would you do it? Like why?

You don't want to just throw that away. I get that. But if it's starting to impact your day-to-day and you are really feeling like you're kind of suffering through this and it's not fun, it's not enticing, and it's not a challenge that feels... like it is really developing you as a person, then why would you do it? Like why?

It's the same thing as if, you know, you have a friend that you keep reaching out to and they don't reach back out to you. They're not reciprocating that feeling. And it's different when you have a friend that is busy, right? They're doing their thing. You're doing your thing. And you know, though, that you can count on them. And when it's time to reach out, it's time to meet up for coffee.

It's the same thing as if, you know, you have a friend that you keep reaching out to and they don't reach back out to you. They're not reciprocating that feeling. And it's different when you have a friend that is busy, right? They're doing their thing. You're doing your thing. And you know, though, that you can count on them. And when it's time to reach out, it's time to meet up for coffee.

It's the same thing as if, you know, you have a friend that you keep reaching out to and they don't reach back out to you. They're not reciprocating that feeling. And it's different when you have a friend that is busy, right? They're doing their thing. You're doing your thing. And you know, though, that you can count on them. And when it's time to reach out, it's time to meet up for coffee.

They're going to be there. And they're gonna be like, what's up? And you're gonna be like, what's up? You know, it's so interesting. I feel like we pack a lot on our plates because it's almost as if we have a standard of being perfect. Like you, you cannot make a mistake anymore. And I, I, I'm, I'm Still kind of figuring that balance out. I don't like making mistakes. I really don't.

They're going to be there. And they're gonna be like, what's up? And you're gonna be like, what's up? You know, it's so interesting. I feel like we pack a lot on our plates because it's almost as if we have a standard of being perfect. Like you, you cannot make a mistake anymore. And I, I, I'm, I'm Still kind of figuring that balance out. I don't like making mistakes. I really don't.

They're going to be there. And they're gonna be like, what's up? And you're gonna be like, what's up? You know, it's so interesting. I feel like we pack a lot on our plates because it's almost as if we have a standard of being perfect. Like you, you cannot make a mistake anymore. And I, I, I'm, I'm Still kind of figuring that balance out. I don't like making mistakes. I really don't.

Admitting to making a mistake is embarrassing. Admitting that I cannot do something is embarrassing. But I started to let go of those feelings of embarrassment when I started to champion the things that I'm good at. And I feel like I have a talent to and I feel like I have a calling to. It's almost like, yeah, you know, OK, I'm not the best at, you know, freestyle rapping. I wish I was.

Admitting to making a mistake is embarrassing. Admitting that I cannot do something is embarrassing. But I started to let go of those feelings of embarrassment when I started to champion the things that I'm good at. And I feel like I have a talent to and I feel like I have a calling to. It's almost like, yeah, you know, OK, I'm not the best at, you know, freestyle rapping. I wish I was.