Tonesa Welch

First, when I think about it, I can talk, and then as soon as I start talking about it. Yeah, so I'm still dealing with that a lot. He wanted to go home. He said he wanted to be with God. But the week before, the week it happened, I was in Detroit. He was in L.A., and he called me and said, I need to see you. And I said, well, I'll be there tomorrow. And I flew to L.A.

First, when I think about it, I can talk, and then as soon as I start talking about it. Yeah, so I'm still dealing with that a lot. He wanted to go home. He said he wanted to be with God. But the week before, the week it happened, I was in Detroit. He was in L.A., and he called me and said, I need to see you. And I said, well, I'll be there tomorrow. And I flew to L.A.

We spent the most beautiful time together, just him and I. And we talked and we ate and we laughed and we had a great time. So I left on a Friday. And he said, promise me you'll never, you know, we won't go a day without talking to each other. You know, because when kids get grown, everybody get grown and get in their life. You might not hear from a couple of days or three days.

We spent the most beautiful time together, just him and I. And we talked and we ate and we laughed and we had a great time. So I left on a Friday. And he said, promise me you'll never, you know, we won't go a day without talking to each other. You know, because when kids get grown, everybody get grown and get in their life. You might not hear from a couple of days or three days.

So we made a promise, you know, we pinky and you're doing all that. We would never go a day without speaking. I said, okay. You know, I'm not thinking like that. I said, okay. And he said, so I got home. I called him. I said, I made it. He said, okay. Talk to you tomorrow. He already came. I didn't talk to him. I'm like, hmm. You know, still didn't think nothing of it. Sunday came.

So we made a promise, you know, we pinky and you're doing all that. We would never go a day without speaking. I said, okay. You know, I'm not thinking like that. I said, okay. And he said, so I got home. I called him. I said, I made it. He said, okay. Talk to you tomorrow. He already came. I didn't talk to him. I'm like, hmm. You know, still didn't think nothing of it. Sunday came.

I was calling him, didn't talk to him. I panicked automatically. I said, God, we're not supposed to. This is not supposed to happen. We're supposed to talk every day. Something is wrong. Something is wrong. So I end up calling his wife, which I never do. And I said, uh... Where's Jason? I haven't heard from him. And she said, well, he's okay. He's at home. He's just going through a lot.

I was calling him, didn't talk to him. I panicked automatically. I said, God, we're not supposed to. This is not supposed to happen. We're supposed to talk every day. Something is wrong. Something is wrong. So I end up calling his wife, which I never do. And I said, uh... Where's Jason? I haven't heard from him. And she said, well, he's okay. He's at home. He's just going through a lot.

And I said, well, what is he going through, you know? Well, he's just going through a lot. And then I said, okay. We were talking. We were chatting. I said, I'm out there running Starbucks. I'll call you back. Let me call you back because I needed my phone to app. I said, let me call you back. So about time I got my Starbucks, got back in the car, called her back, and she was like, he's gone.

And I said, well, what is he going through, you know? Well, he's just going through a lot. And then I said, okay. We were talking. We were chatting. I said, I'm out there running Starbucks. I'll call you back. Let me call you back because I needed my phone to app. I said, let me call you back. So about time I got my Starbucks, got back in the car, called her back, and she was like, he's gone.

I said, who's gone? I said, Jason's gone. I'm like, gone where? She said, he's gone. Just that fast.

I said, who's gone? I said, Jason's gone. I'm like, gone where? She said, he's gone. Just that fast.

No, and that's just the part about it. Like people always think like you see it coming, but talking to therapists and everybody, you don't. Sometimes you just don't. Sometimes it's a break. He probably knew, but he would never show me that. He never wanted me to see that. Probably his wife said he would go in and out, but she never thought that. You know, people in life get depressed, you know.

No, and that's just the part about it. Like people always think like you see it coming, but talking to therapists and everybody, you don't. Sometimes you just don't. Sometimes it's a break. He probably knew, but he would never show me that. He never wanted me to see that. Probably his wife said he would go in and out, but she never thought that. You know, people in life get depressed, you know.

It's life, and it's tough, and it's rough. It's been rough on my family since the indictment, you know. They made it. People have made it really rough, but I thought we overcame it. I thought we were going to be okay.

It's life, and it's tough, and it's rough. It's been rough on my family since the indictment, you know. They made it. People have made it really rough, but I thought we overcame it. I thought we were going to be okay.

yeah so I'm so sorry but I just thank God I said well thanks for giving me that time you know thanks for him saying that I want to be with her but you know my son was so handsome like gosh it was awesome and um seeing him You know, laying in that casket, he looked so like, he looked like the little, like a little boy. Like he was so, like so fresh. And it looked like he was in such a peace.

yeah so I'm so sorry but I just thank God I said well thanks for giving me that time you know thanks for him saying that I want to be with her but you know my son was so handsome like gosh it was awesome and um seeing him You know, laying in that casket, he looked so like, he looked like the little, like a little boy. Like he was so, like so fresh. And it looked like he was in such a peace.

So I try to think about, like all the time, like he was at a peace. So whatever was so heavy on him, that he's at a peace. And I know the way my life has been going, that he's up there just like an angel, just Because he always said, he told me then, he said, forget about all this stuff. No, but you're still just having a conversation. Forget about all this stuff. Take care of you.

So I try to think about, like all the time, like he was at a peace. So whatever was so heavy on him, that he's at a peace. And I know the way my life has been going, that he's up there just like an angel, just Because he always said, he told me then, he said, forget about all this stuff. No, but you're still just having a conversation. Forget about all this stuff. Take care of you.