Trisha Paytas

Trisha. I've been abducted, I guess.

Yes. I could be kidnapped at 35? Yes. Oh, okay. We, we. Yeah, I was, yeah. Can you walk me? But it's like, it's in the sense where it's like, I don't know where I'm at. Like I go with somebody and all of a sudden you wake up, you're like, oh, in someone's truck and stuff like that. At one point in your life, you woke up in the back of a truck. I mean, multiple times. Yeah, for sure.

Yes. I could be kidnapped at 35? Yes. Oh, okay. We, we. Yeah, I was, yeah. Can you walk me? But it's like, it's in the sense where it's like, I don't know where I'm at. Like I go with somebody and all of a sudden you wake up, you're like, oh, in someone's truck and stuff like that. At one point in your life, you woke up in the back of a truck. I mean, multiple times. Yeah, for sure.

Yes. I could be kidnapped at 35? Yes. Oh, okay. We, we. Yeah, I was, yeah. Can you walk me? But it's like, it's in the sense where it's like, I don't know where I'm at. Like I go with somebody and all of a sudden you wake up, you're like, oh, in someone's truck and stuff like that. At one point in your life, you woke up in the back of a truck. I mean, multiple times. Yeah, for sure.

Yeah, it's crazy. There's like,

Yeah, it's crazy. There's like,

Yeah, it's crazy. There's like,

and you know back then again you don't think in there but you're like well I went with this person willingly so yeah you just don't think about stuff like that when you would wake up in the back of those trucks like what did you do you kind of just don't do anything well you know you're like coming off a drug so you kind of just like let things happen you're just like oh and then they like let you off or something like that so you kind of just and you don't again I just I didn't think of it like anything I hear people talk about their stories and for me it just like

and you know back then again you don't think in there but you're like well I went with this person willingly so yeah you just don't think about stuff like that when you would wake up in the back of those trucks like what did you do you kind of just don't do anything well you know you're like coming off a drug so you kind of just like let things happen you're just like oh and then they like let you off or something like that so you kind of just and you don't again I just I didn't think of it like anything I hear people talk about their stories and for me it just like

and you know back then again you don't think in there but you're like well I went with this person willingly so yeah you just don't think about stuff like that when you would wake up in the back of those trucks like what did you do you kind of just don't do anything well you know you're like coming off a drug so you kind of just like let things happen you're just like oh and then they like let you off or something like that so you kind of just and you don't again I just I didn't think of it like anything I hear people talk about their stories and for me it just like

I say it casually because to me it almost seems casual. It almost seems like, oh, well, that's what I was doing, I guess, even if I didn't want it or someone brought me with them. It's kind of a – I don't know. I'm like, well, this is the life I chose, which is such a weird way to think. Of course, anybody else in this situation would be like, oh, my God, that's so awful.

I say it casually because to me it almost seems casual. It almost seems like, oh, well, that's what I was doing, I guess, even if I didn't want it or someone brought me with them. It's kind of a – I don't know. I'm like, well, this is the life I chose, which is such a weird way to think. Of course, anybody else in this situation would be like, oh, my God, that's so awful.

I say it casually because to me it almost seems casual. It almost seems like, oh, well, that's what I was doing, I guess, even if I didn't want it or someone brought me with them. It's kind of a – I don't know. I'm like, well, this is the life I chose, which is such a weird way to think. Of course, anybody else in this situation would be like, oh, my God, that's so awful.

But for me, I just thought, well, this is what I chose, but –

But for me, I just thought, well, this is what I chose, but –

But for me, I just thought, well, this is what I chose, but –

make maybe the decisions you would make when you're sober oh for sure um but when you look back at yourself in those situations like how do you feel it's almost like i just don't even know that life you know it's kind of like my high school life i don't know that life i don't know like there's so many stages i look back on and i'm like oh i don't even like recognize like i remember it

make maybe the decisions you would make when you're sober oh for sure um but when you look back at yourself in those situations like how do you feel it's almost like i just don't even know that life you know it's kind of like my high school life i don't know that life i don't know like there's so many stages i look back on and i'm like oh i don't even like recognize like i remember it

make maybe the decisions you would make when you're sober oh for sure um but when you look back at yourself in those situations like how do you feel it's almost like i just don't even know that life you know it's kind of like my high school life i don't know that life i don't know like there's so many stages i look back on and i'm like oh i don't even like recognize like i remember it

but some of I don't even like recognize you know what I mean because I was just such a different person and almost it almost seems like I'm telling a story you know what I mean like it's almost doesn't seem like my life it's almost like this is a story about this girl but like it like you know and I it took me a while I didn't go to therapy for like a really long time and even in therapy now I like don't talk about it because it's just like it's not trauma to me you know stuff that happened to me as a kid too I'm just like oh it's not trauma even though like it is yeah it's just like I don't know I don't like it's like it's not something I'm like uncomfortable talking about what was like therapy I don't get deep into it because I'm like it's fine