Unnamed Former Patient

We talked about puberty blockers and also, again, all the questions.

We talked about puberty blockers and also, again, all the questions.

It was really... Yeah, very heavy and, yeah, very big. Yeah, we felt really serious about it also.

It was really... Yeah, very heavy and, yeah, very big. Yeah, we felt really serious about it also.

And finally, when she was 12, she began getting monthly shots that paused her development. But it was always very clear to me when I started that if I ever thought different or changed my mind or did not feel well about it or... Yeah, you can stop whenever you want and everything will start as normal, maybe a bit later. But I always knew it was temporary.

And finally, when she was 12, she began getting monthly shots that paused her development. But it was always very clear to me when I started that if I ever thought different or changed my mind or did not feel well about it or... Yeah, you can stop whenever you want and everything will start as normal, maybe a bit later. But I always knew it was temporary.

I always knew that, yeah, till the next phase were the hormones, I could stop every moment and...

I always knew that, yeah, till the next phase were the hormones, I could stop every moment and...

But I was so happy with it because I was very aware that I did not want anything to do with male puberty. Yeah, with wet dreams and a beard and yeah, it felt like a gift. And I was also very aware. Over the next four years, Manon kept getting her shots, going into the hospital all the time for tests.

But I was so happy with it because I was very aware that I did not want anything to do with male puberty. Yeah, with wet dreams and a beard and yeah, it felt like a gift. And I was also very aware. Over the next four years, Manon kept getting her shots, going into the hospital all the time for tests.

Again, all, how are you? How are you feeling? Are you aware? Because this is the stage that, yeah, you will get like breasts or your body will change.

Again, all, how are you? How are you feeling? Are you aware? Because this is the stage that, yeah, you will get like breasts or your body will change.

And very important, my fertility. Right, yeah. Yeah, and I can remember that, yeah, I got the question. I really had to literally sign a form that I'm aware that, yeah, as soon as I start that my fertility will go. And, yeah, do you want children? Someone asked me, could it be Analu or someone else? I said, yeah, I don't know. I'm 16. Yeah, because in this phase and fertility.

And very important, my fertility. Right, yeah. Yeah, and I can remember that, yeah, I got the question. I really had to literally sign a form that I'm aware that, yeah, as soon as I start that my fertility will go. And, yeah, do you want children? Someone asked me, could it be Analu or someone else? I said, yeah, I don't know. I'm 16. Yeah, because in this phase and fertility.

And I said, okay, what's the other option? Well, the option was that I then had to quit the blockers for at least six months.

And I said, okay, what's the other option? Well, the option was that I then had to quit the blockers for at least six months.

Then go back to the hospital, go and I saw this room in front of me with the dirty magazines, and then I could do a thing what I never did because it made me sick even think of it. Right. Yeah. How do you call it? Yeah. Masturbate in a... Hell no. Yes. I said, hell no. So I signed. And yeah, to be honest now, do I regret that choice? No, but it does have impact on my life. I'm now 30.

Then go back to the hospital, go and I saw this room in front of me with the dirty magazines, and then I could do a thing what I never did because it made me sick even think of it. Right. Yeah. How do you call it? Yeah. Masturbate in a... Hell no. Yes. I said, hell no. So I signed. And yeah, to be honest now, do I regret that choice? No, but it does have impact on my life. I'm now 30.

Everyone around me is pregnant or has children or... Yeah. And of course, I think it's a very normal age that you think, oh, shit, I would also like kids or be a mom or anything. So do I regret the choice? Absolutely not. But it was a very big decision with impact now still on my life.

Everyone around me is pregnant or has children or... Yeah. And of course, I think it's a very normal age that you think, oh, shit, I would also like kids or be a mom or anything. So do I regret the choice? Absolutely not. But it was a very big decision with impact now still on my life.