Unnamed Former Patient

And I, We were always like, okay, when I was 12, puberty blockers, then the next phase was 16. Yes, hormones, next step. And my end point was, oh, when the operation, I'm done, finished, basta. Right. I'm a woman. I'll never tell someone again and I'll live my life and I will do everything what all my friends did when they were 12, 13, 14. I will just do it when I'm 18. Right.

And I, We were always like, okay, when I was 12, puberty blockers, then the next phase was 16. Yes, hormones, next step. And my end point was, oh, when the operation, I'm done, finished, basta. Right. I'm a woman. I'll never tell someone again and I'll live my life and I will do everything what all my friends did when they were 12, 13, 14. I will just do it when I'm 18. Right.

Like with boys and experience and sex and all the things, I literally just put my life on pause. And yeah. So in the end, when the point came that I'm now... done, you're never done. I mean, it's not so easy then to press play and, oh, let's go and take a guy home and have the first time sex. No, that's really difficult.

Like with boys and experience and sex and all the things, I literally just put my life on pause. And yeah. So in the end, when the point came that I'm now... done, you're never done. I mean, it's not so easy then to press play and, oh, let's go and take a guy home and have the first time sex. No, that's really difficult.

I'm so scared to be hurt by someone because I built as a small child such a big wall and And literally, if someone stick a finger out, I took the whole arm and I broke it. Yeah. I did that literally once. So, yeah. And so it helped me, the defense, and made me strong. But I still have that naturally in me, the wall, the brick wall. I have to be strong. I have to be tough. I have to...

I'm so scared to be hurt by someone because I built as a small child such a big wall and And literally, if someone stick a finger out, I took the whole arm and I broke it. Yeah. I did that literally once. So, yeah. And so it helped me, the defense, and made me strong. But I still have that naturally in me, the wall, the brick wall. I have to be strong. I have to be tough. I have to...

Fight for myself, for my rights, for my, yeah.

Fight for myself, for my rights, for my, yeah.

But yeah, to be honest, I do not have to tell anyone. I mean... Without being arrogant, you could not see it. You do not hear it. No one will ever, if they meet me, think, oh, she's transgender or... Yeah.

But yeah, to be honest, I do not have to tell anyone. I mean... Without being arrogant, you could not see it. You do not hear it. No one will ever, if they meet me, think, oh, she's transgender or... Yeah.

Yeah, very different because, yeah, you see it maybe or you hear it a little on her. And, yeah, she works in a restaurant. A few weeks ago, a guest asked her, are you a guy or a woman? Do I need to call you miss or him? Yeah, she totally freaks out and cries. And, yeah, I never have that. Never. That's so hurting just because people know that. Yeah, they hurt you with that.

Yeah, very different because, yeah, you see it maybe or you hear it a little on her. And, yeah, she works in a restaurant. A few weeks ago, a guest asked her, are you a guy or a woman? Do I need to call you miss or him? Yeah, she totally freaks out and cries. And, yeah, I never have that. Never. That's so hurting just because people know that. Yeah, they hurt you with that.

That would be, yeah, a nightmare. I cannot even imagine. Yeah, I think maybe I did not even live. Yeah, I think I would maybe hurt myself or... Yeah, I think so. Mm-hmm. Because of our treatment that I luckily could get, I can live my life now how I live it. A normal job. I have a good background. I have, yeah, I just enjoying life. So going out for dinner, parties, festivals, traveling.

That would be, yeah, a nightmare. I cannot even imagine. Yeah, I think maybe I did not even live. Yeah, I think I would maybe hurt myself or... Yeah, I think so. Mm-hmm. Because of our treatment that I luckily could get, I can live my life now how I live it. A normal job. I have a good background. I have, yeah, I just enjoying life. So going out for dinner, parties, festivals, traveling.

I am also a person on Friday evening after like a work week. I love to just sit here and watch a series or a movie with my cats and close the curtains. Do you guys have reality TV here? I love reality TV. I love the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, Real Housewives of New Jersey. We now have Real Housewives of Amsterdam. Yeah, it's amazing. They are crazy.

I am also a person on Friday evening after like a work week. I love to just sit here and watch a series or a movie with my cats and close the curtains. Do you guys have reality TV here? I love reality TV. I love the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, Real Housewives of New Jersey. We now have Real Housewives of Amsterdam. Yeah, it's amazing. They are crazy.