Valerie Walker

It's really easy to fall for you guys.

It's just the hard part is finding out the appropriate person to fall in love with.

And I'm not going to lie.

I slept with a few varying genders in college, meaning straight women.

But she was not one of them.

And then after college, we lost touch.

And recently, she started following me on Instagram.

And then more recently, DM'd me that she was coming into New York and wanted to meet up.

I went to the place at the appointed time, and I was super curious about how it would feel to see her again.

I knew that she meant so much to me, but I also understand that what means something to you doesn't mean the same to somebody else.

And then suddenly she was in front of me and then she was in my arms and I was in hers.

And it was a great hug, long hug, a strong hug.

One of those hugs where you just rock side to side.

And then we stopped and we sat down and we caught up and we cried and we laughed and we held hands when shit was super hard to say.

And it was really beautiful.

I could recognize it for what it was, a blinding, furious, and beautiful love that it was absolutely okay to have and that was not in any way base.

And we're sitting there and I'm telling her that how much her friendship has meant to me and then she flipped it and told me how much my friendship had meant to her and that she's not nostalgic and she doesn't even have any pictures from college, but she has two that she's printed out and one of them is of me.

Yeah, I know, right?

And so it was just so affirming in that moment to know that she was mine and I was hers.

And if anyone ever asks me about the great loves of my life, she will be one that I talk about.