Vicki Anstey

And, you know, I'll be honest, I think there were so many moments where I was so grateful to them for coming into the team and to, you know, making sure it didn't unravel again or completely that there were red flags, but I kind of chose to ignore them and

And there were lots of moments, I think, where I didn't speak up, where I didn't challenge things and where I didn't ask difficult questions because part of me was probably intimidated by both of them.

And again, we're back to that place where, you know, you sort of comply and self-edit a bit and, you know, don't confront situations that don't in your gut and your instinct feel right.

So, you know, I take responsibility for aspects of that as well.

But it became very clear very quickly that it was a very difficult dynamic and that there were some real clashes.

No, very slowly.

And added to that, I was seasick for 20 days.

When you say seasick, people kind of go, oh yeah, I've been on a dinghy and it felt great.

So if I tell you that I didn't change my clothes for that entire period of time, that maybe tells you something.

Like you literally can't function.

All I could do to make myself feel better was to row.

So for that reason, I didn't miss a single rowing shift.

So I was barely taking in any food.

I was trying to eat, but throwing up.

which in itself is exhausting, of course.

And, you know, I couldn't sit up in the cabin.

I had to lie down as soon as I got in there.

So, yeah, just you cannot function.

How does it come to an end, just the weather and the sea changes?

Yeah, I think you just adapt.