Vicki Anstey

And so, yeah, little by little, I kind of realised what my real capabilities were.

And, you know, I'm so grateful for that opportunity.

I don't think I would ever have discovered that.

Yeah.

I don't even go up to your husband.

Yeah.

And I think I learned two really key lessons from that.

One, that fear is not a wall.

It's a doorway.

It's a signpost.

So then I started to think, OK, the things that I fear the most must be the things that I gravitate towards.

And the other was about sort of the relativity of resilience, I suppose, because there were honestly moments through that process that I'd sort of sit with myself with my thoughts or even in interrogation.

When your head is in a bag and you've got these headphones on and, you know, your sort of hands are tied behind your back and you're being brutalized, thinking I shouldn't perhaps make exact parallels, but just mentally thinking I've chosen to be here.

I will get through this.

And sometimes through those moments, it just wasn't as bad as the.

darkest moments of my divorce that I knew I had to go back to and that that was real life and I couldn't choose to escape that so did it accelerate your healing from the marriage yeah I think so and it helped me grow yeah new edges and just to to realize that we can get through almost anything

Oh, that was it was such a hard transition, honestly.

You sort of.

I came back with it, and I've spoken to lots of people who've done, and I've sort of had the same thing since I've done other challenges as well.

You sort of come back with a sense of apathy a bit, where you just can't be bothered with the trivialities of life anymore.