Victoria Song

I memorized the weight of my plates.

I learned how to scoop rice in such a way that I'm automatically getting a certain amount.

And I had studied what that amount of rice would do.

And in some ways, it led to healthier things.

Like I stopped eating pure white rice.

I started mixing brown rice with quinoa.

Like these are good things for you.

These are things you should do or whatnot.

So that was great.

But those behaviors I just described to you are like the early hallmarks of eating disorders and disordered eating, which are two different things.

But, you know, my therapist noticed it.

My friends noticed it.

I had interventions held and I was like, oh...

I've become really obsessive in a way that is harming me and that I didn't even realize was harming me.

Me, someone who is very aware of the ways that data fatigue can be pernicious.

I had slipped into it.

Like, I don't know many athletes or women who have not had a period of disordered or disordered eating or eating disorders within their lives.

It's very common.

It's very pervasive.

It's very supported by diet culture.