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Like, but I was just like, I didn't feel it at all anymore. Well, the veil was lifted. Yeah. I was like, I never had fallen in love with him. Um, I knew I wasn't, even when we first started dating, I knew he was just pretty and he was, and he was fun. Right. I mean, and he was wild like me, but I was like, with the drugs, you think you're in love, you know what I mean?

Like, but I was just like, I didn't feel it at all anymore. Well, the veil was lifted. Yeah. I was like, I never had fallen in love with him. Um, I knew I wasn't, even when we first started dating, I knew he was just pretty and he was, and he was fun. Right. I mean, and he was wild like me, but I was like, with the drugs, you think you're in love, you know what I mean?

So I was like, back to that where I'm like, I don't want to have sex with you. And I didn't know.

So I was like, back to that where I'm like, I don't want to have sex with you. And I didn't know.

Yeah. So and I probably that had something to do with it, you know, like subconsciously, you know, you're like, oh, I don't want to go back to that life. Right.

Yeah. So and I probably that had something to do with it, you know, like subconsciously, you know, you're like, oh, I don't want to go back to that life. Right.

So I ended up meeting someone else there and then we ended up together and that was like started out really great.

So I ended up meeting someone else there and then we ended up together and that was like started out really great.

um we were both sober we both sponsored people we both did like the whole thing um and then you know he started going out you know what i mean and that's when things got shitty you know what i mean because like i wanted to stay sober um i even relapsed on alcohol with him at one point and then i was like i don't want to do this anymore like first of all i'm the designated driver

um we were both sober we both sponsored people we both did like the whole thing um and then you know he started going out you know what i mean and that's when things got shitty you know what i mean because like i wanted to stay sober um i even relapsed on alcohol with him at one point and then i was like i don't want to do this anymore like first of all i'm the designated driver

um i you know this isn't what i want to do like i we would go out and like you know i would drive and he would get to drink and so i was like this isn't fun for me right you know what i mean so i was like and then he started getting worse he started doing other things and he brought coke home and i was like okay i'm done like it was just a fucking spiral so i literally was like i'm just gonna like we're gonna stop you know what i mean all together

um i you know this isn't what i want to do like i we would go out and like you know i would drive and he would get to drink and so i was like this isn't fun for me right you know what i mean so i was like and then he started getting worse he started doing other things and he brought coke home and i was like okay i'm done like it was just a fucking spiral so i literally was like i'm just gonna like we're gonna stop you know what i mean all together

Um, and actually I think he pushed it even further. He disappeared one night and he never did anything like that. And so all night long, I didn't know where he was, but he's, you know, he was definitely like a puppy dog type. So he would like hit me up every once in a while, like to tell, like most guys just disappear.

Um, and actually I think he pushed it even further. He disappeared one night and he never did anything like that. And so all night long, I didn't know where he was, but he's, you know, he was definitely like a puppy dog type. So he would like hit me up every once in a while, like to tell, like most guys just disappear.

I was like, I could get ahold of him enough to know he was alive and I was able to get out of him where he was.

I was like, I could get ahold of him enough to know he was alive and I was able to get out of him where he was.

right so then i came and grabbed him what was he doing he was with um he well he was working the weho crowd and some guy they have doing a bunch of fucking meth and like the dude was paying him to hang out i don't fucking know oh you know what i mean he was getting the old trombone no i don't think he was doing that but like you know what i mean like i i know you know my mind it gets weird on meth especially yeah with dudes they say you're only one you know

right so then i came and grabbed him what was he doing he was with um he well he was working the weho crowd and some guy they have doing a bunch of fucking meth and like the dude was paying him to hang out i don't fucking know oh you know what i mean he was getting the old trombone no i don't think he was doing that but like you know what i mean like i i know you know my mind it gets weird on meth especially yeah with dudes they say you're only one you know

one unit away from an experience. But yeah, so I was like, but either way, the thing I was concerned with was like, why is he out all night? What's going on? So of course, you know, and I went to full borderline episode, which I hadn't had in forever. You know, like I'm like, I waited up with the extension cord. I'm like beating him with the extension cord. Like I was going, losing my mind.

one unit away from an experience. But yeah, so I was like, but either way, the thing I was concerned with was like, why is he out all night? What's going on? So of course, you know, and I went to full borderline episode, which I hadn't had in forever. You know, like I'm like, I waited up with the extension cord. I'm like beating him with the extension cord. Like I was going, losing my mind.