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And I was like, okay, this sucks. oh no so just from doing it one time fucked up your whole like fucked up my system and then like trying to take it away even after one time i swear it was like the either the worst come down or you're already feeling symptoms i can't figure it out like it was horrible That's terrible.

And I was like, okay, this sucks. oh no so just from doing it one time fucked up your whole like fucked up my system and then like trying to take it away even after one time i swear it was like the either the worst come down or you're already feeling symptoms i can't figure it out like it was horrible That's terrible.

Um, so yeah, I started doing that shit and I was like, and it eventually start liking it, you know, but it's like, you're almost liking it for what you think it is. It's kind of like an abusive relationship, you know, like rather than what it really is. Like when you're sick, you're like, Oh, I can't wait. And then the second you get it, you're like, that wasn't even that great.

Um, so yeah, I started doing that shit and I was like, and it eventually start liking it, you know, but it's like, you're almost liking it for what you think it is. It's kind of like an abusive relationship, you know, like rather than what it really is. Like when you're sick, you're like, Oh, I can't wait. And then the second you get it, you're like, that wasn't even that great.

Yeah. So, um, yeah.

Yeah. So, um, yeah.

It's also recovering.

It's also recovering.

And take me from there. And that was when I was like really like hiding everything, you know, because it was like before when I was on the pills the first time before I ever relapsed again and like got off.

And take me from there. And that was when I was like really like hiding everything, you know, because it was like before when I was on the pills the first time before I ever relapsed again and like got off.

i would always tell people like oh i'm a junkie like i'm i don't give a like don't ever come for me like i am never going to rehab like i was like proud of it but once you quit there's something that happens where like and why quit i mean like i thought i was sober i was doing cocaine every day like that was what i thought like my friends california sober yeah my friends still joke with me like you were never sober at that time like you were literally doing coke every day i'm like hey that's like a cigarette you know what i mean yeah

i would always tell people like oh i'm a junkie like i'm i don't give a like don't ever come for me like i am never going to rehab like i was like proud of it but once you quit there's something that happens where like and why quit i mean like i thought i was sober i was doing cocaine every day like that was what i thought like my friends california sober yeah my friends still joke with me like you were never sober at that time like you were literally doing coke every day i'm like hey that's like a cigarette you know what i mean yeah

Um, but like for me, like I got sober off the pills, they had caused so much problems and so much pain. And so I was kind of embarrassed, like to tell anyone that I relapsed. I didn't want to tell anyone. So like, then it just got worse. And when you start hiding shit is when it really gets bad.

Um, but like for me, like I got sober off the pills, they had caused so much problems and so much pain. And so I was kind of embarrassed, like to tell anyone that I relapsed. I didn't want to tell anyone. So like, then it just got worse. And when you start hiding shit is when it really gets bad.

Well, I had a miscarriage. OK. Yeah. But I didn't ever want kids. I just like wanted to like have that one because like the hormones started kicking in. Right. That shit will trick you, by the way. You're like you can stay pregnant for more than like six weeks. Like you're like, all I want to do is be a mother. Maybe.

Well, I had a miscarriage. OK. Yeah. But I didn't ever want kids. I just like wanted to like have that one because like the hormones started kicking in. Right. That shit will trick you, by the way. You're like you can stay pregnant for more than like six weeks. Like you're like, all I want to do is be a mother. Maybe.

but I definitely don't want not now but if I had a shit one out when I was 18 imagine that kid would be fucked up right now that's kind of where I was at but to be fair I did detox solely for the fact that I was so some points there yeah a lot of women can do a lot of people drug addicts don't do that um but yeah so you know that's why I got sober and then I was like oh I can't tell anyone I relapsed like that's embarrassing like after all that you know

but I definitely don't want not now but if I had a shit one out when I was 18 imagine that kid would be fucked up right now that's kind of where I was at but to be fair I did detox solely for the fact that I was so some points there yeah a lot of women can do a lot of people drug addicts don't do that um but yeah so you know that's why I got sober and then I was like oh I can't tell anyone I relapsed like that's embarrassing like after all that you know

So I was going through the whole, you know, liar addict shit. Um, the house was filthy. It was pretty gross. I mean, I'm already, I'm not going to lie. Like I'm a bit of a slob naturally. Cause my father was like, I grew up like with a slob, you know what I mean? Like, and that's not even any shade.

So I was going through the whole, you know, liar addict shit. Um, the house was filthy. It was pretty gross. I mean, I'm already, I'm not going to lie. Like I'm a bit of a slob naturally. Cause my father was like, I grew up like with a slob, you know what I mean? Like, and that's not even any shade.