Wade Barnes

It doesn't matter if you enjoy the content, if you lurk, if you chat, if you comment, whatever.

but my job is hey you're getting home from work you have your own problems you've had your own long day you're looking for something to watch or you know listen to and that's what i'm supposed to provide not sit here and bitch and moan about my own personal shit which i do occasionally sometimes but typically i try to keep all that separate and just give people something to enjoy during their free time because there's a lot of content to consume so for people to choose anything that we do like well i want you to enjoy it but however you enjoy it whatever you enjoy it for i want to enjoy it but

been a struggle it's been a struggle lately and again there's been some highs i went foaling you guys heard of foaling bob did you have you ever been foaling i have not no i know what it is yeah so friends mutual friends of ours invited us out to go foaling over the weekend which is basically like you take um oh god what's the game called we throw the goddamn bean bags at the boards cornhole

cornhole it's like a flat cornhole board which is just rectangle of wood on the ground you set up bowling pins on it you stand on opposite you've got two of these across from each other like in cornhole you have teams on opposite sides and you throw a football and try to knock over the bowling pins it was a lot of fun i shouldn't have done it my doctor literally two days before gave me a knee brace told me to take two weeks not do anything and then i went and threw football for an hour and now i was going pretty easy on it but they were plans i had in progress and i don't like

canceling plans on people i was telling mark another problem of mine is i'm way too like people pleaser i have people pleaser running through my veins where i go out of my way for everyone no matter what uh at my own expense quite often and i did it again i had fun i enjoyed it i would love to do it again but i really shouldn't have done it while my knees messed up

I don't know, not to be depressing, derailing.

I hate being a downer, but it's been a time.

Some of the health issues I think are going to resolve themselves and be fine both for myself and people around me, but some of them I don't know.

I just genuinely don't know how it's going to play out.

I've got a couple of people in my life that are just getting up there in years and starting to show signs of I've got concerns.

And I think just mortality itself has been a lot more present on my mind in the last half a year or so.

I've just had a lot more concerns and a lot more

A lot of people around me are struggling, and whenever you were struggling and people around you were struggling and you're trying to lift them up, often what you end up doing is pushing yourself down further, and I think that's what I've been doing, if I'm being honest.

Truth is, I've done both.

Last fall, I actually preemptively started going in and talking to, I guess, counselors is a proper term.

I went in for just some counseling.

It was more preemptive than anything because I felt the start of this even before the things that actually caused me to kind of fall off the cliff of the burnout feeling.

We've been very fortunate that we've had success, you know, with podcasts, you know, our own channels and stuff like that over the years.

Success is great, but success also comes at different costs.

I've talked to my community about how, like, I miss, it's really nice having, like, hundreds of people come and watch, you know, a live stream, right?