Whitney Carson

Like, am I even good?

Like you kind of go back into those fears and those doubts of like, I don't even know, am I good anymore?

And so the fact that I did win after all these years was just like,

it kind of gave me a confidence of like, okay, like I can do this.

Like I, you know, I'm meant to be here.

And also just Robert being Robert put, but put back a lot of confidence back in myself that I think I lost for a while.

And I think the season with Milo, like not getting that win was really hard on me.

And I think as much as I was passionate about each season, I felt like

part of me was just doing it for the job as well.

Like it was like, okay, this is a job.

I lost a little bit.

I feel like of my not drive, but maybe passion a little bit, like where, where my passion stemmed from.

So I think that came back a little bit.

Exactly.

And, like, Carson gets just as invested as I am in these stories.

Yeah, I actually no one's asked me that yet.

And I haven't talked about it at all.

But Alfonso is very much my brother.

Like he is so he's family, like he's a safe space for me.

And so I just remember before the show started, I had so many emotions because I was so anxious.