Zerk

It's the people pleaser side in me.

I don't want to say no.

Like, in an idealized, romanticized version of myself, yeah, bro, I'm in line for the crumble cookie.

But when it comes to the actual Friday where I'm supposed to be in line for it, I sleep in.

Oh, well, I got other things to do.

The Thursday night, I'm up late doing something that I shouldn't be.

Because I know I need to wake up early, but instead I'm going to bed at 2 a.m.

You know?

And in the same vein, like, people will promise things.

They're not going to deliver on it unless you see them deliver on it time and time again.

Don't count on it.

Don't count on it.

And I think like.

actions really speak louder than words and I have realized how important my actions are and when I say I don't want to say that I'm going to do things anymore I don't want to say yeah I'll be I'm willing to try to be a better partner what does that even mean you're willing to try so like yeah in theory you're you might try what are you talking about either you do it or you don't

Simple as that.

Either you do it or you don't.

And you don't talk about, oh, yeah, bro, I'm going to I'm going to lock in.

Oh, yeah.

You know what?

Yeah, I know.