Zerky

When you are in a toxic situationship, relationship, whatever, friendship, it's kind of like you are fighting for somebody's attention. You are fighting for somebody to like you back. And it's a high that you just... You have to experience it to understand it. I remember when I had told a friend of mine that I was going to entertain the situationship and he's like, why are you doing this?

When you are in a toxic situationship, relationship, whatever, friendship, it's kind of like you are fighting for somebody's attention. You are fighting for somebody to like you back. And it's a high that you just... You have to experience it to understand it. I remember when I had told a friend of mine that I was going to entertain the situationship and he's like, why are you doing this?

When you are in a toxic situationship, relationship, whatever, friendship, it's kind of like you are fighting for somebody's attention. You are fighting for somebody to like you back. And it's a high that you just... You have to experience it to understand it. I remember when I had told a friend of mine that I was going to entertain the situationship and he's like, why are you doing this?

Like, this is bad. You know this is bad. You went through a home wrecking situationship before and now you're just going back to it. And I kind of like reflected on that and I was like,

Like, this is bad. You know this is bad. You went through a home wrecking situationship before and now you're just going back to it. And I kind of like reflected on that and I was like,

Like, this is bad. You know this is bad. You went through a home wrecking situationship before and now you're just going back to it. And I kind of like reflected on that and I was like,

I just want to have fun and he was like you're gonna have fun and then you're going to complain to me again because that's always how it goes and I was I was dumbfounded like I really didn't know what to say and I remember he was kind of wrapping up the the topic with me and

I just want to have fun and he was like you're gonna have fun and then you're going to complain to me again because that's always how it goes and I was I was dumbfounded like I really didn't know what to say and I remember he was kind of wrapping up the the topic with me and

I just want to have fun and he was like you're gonna have fun and then you're going to complain to me again because that's always how it goes and I was I was dumbfounded like I really didn't know what to say and I remember he was kind of wrapping up the the topic with me and

he asked me, you know, Zerky, I just want you to ask yourself next time you're going to end up in this situation where you are upset, you knew it was a bad idea, and you did it, is that enough? And I was like, well, if it means, you know, having a shawty, I don't think it's enough. We got to keep going. Or do we? Because after that, I had to stop dating for a while.

he asked me, you know, Zerky, I just want you to ask yourself next time you're going to end up in this situation where you are upset, you knew it was a bad idea, and you did it, is that enough? And I was like, well, if it means, you know, having a shawty, I don't think it's enough. We got to keep going. Or do we? Because after that, I had to stop dating for a while.

he asked me, you know, Zerky, I just want you to ask yourself next time you're going to end up in this situation where you are upset, you knew it was a bad idea, and you did it, is that enough? And I was like, well, if it means, you know, having a shawty, I don't think it's enough. We got to keep going. Or do we? Because after that, I had to stop dating for a while.

I had to stop being intimate for a while because a lot of the things that I experienced in that were, they weren't okay. And I felt hurt. And that conversation with my friend really, really hit me. Is that enough? Is this my sign to change? I had no choice. I had to. I was just... I was... I was afraid... Of going back to that. It wasn't even I was afraid. I was just done.

I had to stop being intimate for a while because a lot of the things that I experienced in that were, they weren't okay. And I felt hurt. And that conversation with my friend really, really hit me. Is that enough? Is this my sign to change? I had no choice. I had to. I was just... I was... I was afraid... Of going back to that. It wasn't even I was afraid. I was just done.

I had to stop being intimate for a while because a lot of the things that I experienced in that were, they weren't okay. And I felt hurt. And that conversation with my friend really, really hit me. Is that enough? Is this my sign to change? I had no choice. I had to. I was just... I was... I was afraid... Of going back to that. It wasn't even I was afraid. I was just done.

I was done with going into something and entertaining something that just had no structure to it. And I knew that I was being used and we were both using each other. I just didn't... I had such a visceral feeling after that whole thing had ended with this person that I just was like, I never want to do that again. There's no part of me that wants to do that again. Now, have I...

I was done with going into something and entertaining something that just had no structure to it. And I knew that I was being used and we were both using each other. I just didn't... I had such a visceral feeling after that whole thing had ended with this person that I just was like, I never want to do that again. There's no part of me that wants to do that again. Now, have I...

I was done with going into something and entertaining something that just had no structure to it. And I knew that I was being used and we were both using each other. I just didn't... I had such a visceral feeling after that whole thing had ended with this person that I just was like, I never want to do that again. There's no part of me that wants to do that again. Now, have I...

gone back to that in a certain sense? Yes, I think so. I've had other situations where similar things in that situationship were mimicked, right? But the good thing was I knew to catch them sooner because I was like, that was enough. I know how I should be treated. I don't want to be treated like that again. And it was on me.

gone back to that in a certain sense? Yes, I think so. I've had other situations where similar things in that situationship were mimicked, right? But the good thing was I knew to catch them sooner because I was like, that was enough. I know how I should be treated. I don't want to be treated like that again. And it was on me.