Zerky

There's something telling me, no, no, no, no, no.

You don't deserve that.

That's not what you deserve.

You deserve the bare minimum, and you're going to be happy with the bare minimum.

I'm like the Matt D'Avella of dating, right?

I'm like a minimalist in that sense, that I don't need much, right?

But...

Sometimes it's nice to wear a cool t-shirt.

I don't just need to have black and white t-shirts all the time.

So that's become a thing that I've had to really address.

And part of that probably comes from the fact that I had to, a lot of the love that I received from people that I admired growing up was conditional.

It was if I did X, Y, and Z, I was loved.

And I did also get unconditional love, don't get me wrong.

But that really tripped me up because that was kind of my closest relationship growing up was this conditional balance.

And I had to know how to people please.

And I had to know when to accept the bare minimum as good enough.

This has followed me into all of my romantic relationships.

I've had serious issues in my dating life with real intimacy and just accepting scraps as something, oh, that's good enough.

It even led me into places that I never thought I would be.

I never thought that I would be destroying a relationship as like the third guy, you know, third guy.