Zerky

And I remember one night I went upstairs to the room I was staying in and I ordered two extra large pizzas just for me, proceeded to eat both of them, watch all of Squid Game in one sitting. I remember I went to the bathroom and I looked at myself and I was just like... Everything is out of whack and I'm treating my mind, I'm treating my body and myself... As if I'm disposable and I don't matter.

And I remember one night I went upstairs to the room I was staying in and I ordered two extra large pizzas just for me, proceeded to eat both of them, watch all of Squid Game in one sitting. I remember I went to the bathroom and I looked at myself and I was just like... Everything is out of whack and I'm treating my mind, I'm treating my body and myself... As if I'm disposable and I don't matter.

And I remember one night I went upstairs to the room I was staying in and I ordered two extra large pizzas just for me, proceeded to eat both of them, watch all of Squid Game in one sitting. I remember I went to the bathroom and I looked at myself and I was just like... Everything is out of whack and I'm treating my mind, I'm treating my body and myself... As if I'm disposable and I don't matter.

Not to mention, I mean... I was trying to cope with all the stress by... You know, tapping into certain media... It's not safe for work, let's put it that way. And that was also weighing heavy on my conscious. That moment when I locked eyes with myself in the mirror, it was the first time that I really saw what I was doing to myself. I really saw like, oh wow, I'm actually destroying myself.

Not to mention, I mean... I was trying to cope with all the stress by... You know, tapping into certain media... It's not safe for work, let's put it that way. And that was also weighing heavy on my conscious. That moment when I locked eyes with myself in the mirror, it was the first time that I really saw what I was doing to myself. I really saw like, oh wow, I'm actually destroying myself.

Not to mention, I mean... I was trying to cope with all the stress by... You know, tapping into certain media... It's not safe for work, let's put it that way. And that was also weighing heavy on my conscious. That moment when I locked eyes with myself in the mirror, it was the first time that I really saw what I was doing to myself. I really saw like, oh wow, I'm actually destroying myself.

I'm actually letting a lot of these things I can't control, control me. Completely. And instead of working with them and doing everything that I can, I'm just, well, it's over. I don't really care anymore. And I felt upset at myself. I did. I really did. But I also... I kind of felt like I saw myself for the first time. I saw who I was at that moment.

I'm actually letting a lot of these things I can't control, control me. Completely. And instead of working with them and doing everything that I can, I'm just, well, it's over. I don't really care anymore. And I felt upset at myself. I did. I really did. But I also... I kind of felt like I saw myself for the first time. I saw who I was at that moment.

I'm actually letting a lot of these things I can't control, control me. Completely. And instead of working with them and doing everything that I can, I'm just, well, it's over. I don't really care anymore. And I felt upset at myself. I did. I really did. But I also... I kind of felt like I saw myself for the first time. I saw who I was at that moment.

I wasn't like holding some kind of expectation and being upset that I wasn't at that expectation. I'm like, wait a minute, this is me. This is me. This is the point that I'm at. And I had been hurt a few times in relationships. I had tapped out. My self-image was destroyed in my mind of who I was once and That's when I asked myself the question. I was like, is that enough? Have I had enough?

I wasn't like holding some kind of expectation and being upset that I wasn't at that expectation. I'm like, wait a minute, this is me. This is me. This is the point that I'm at. And I had been hurt a few times in relationships. I had tapped out. My self-image was destroyed in my mind of who I was once and That's when I asked myself the question. I was like, is that enough? Have I had enough?

I wasn't like holding some kind of expectation and being upset that I wasn't at that expectation. I'm like, wait a minute, this is me. This is me. This is the point that I'm at. And I had been hurt a few times in relationships. I had tapped out. My self-image was destroyed in my mind of who I was once and That's when I asked myself the question. I was like, is that enough? Have I had enough?

This has sucked. I don't want whatever this is anymore. And I kind of nodded at myself. I'm like, yeah, this is enough. I think I'm done feeling sorry for myself. I think I'm done thinking that I'm trapped in this prison of comparison and self-doubt. I think I'm ready to change. Was it easy? Hell no! No, it's never easy. But am I proud of myself? And when I look back at that moment, do I smile?

This has sucked. I don't want whatever this is anymore. And I kind of nodded at myself. I'm like, yeah, this is enough. I think I'm done feeling sorry for myself. I think I'm done thinking that I'm trapped in this prison of comparison and self-doubt. I think I'm ready to change. Was it easy? Hell no! No, it's never easy. But am I proud of myself? And when I look back at that moment, do I smile?

This has sucked. I don't want whatever this is anymore. And I kind of nodded at myself. I'm like, yeah, this is enough. I think I'm done feeling sorry for myself. I think I'm done thinking that I'm trapped in this prison of comparison and self-doubt. I think I'm ready to change. Was it easy? Hell no! No, it's never easy. But am I proud of myself? And when I look back at that moment, do I smile?

What have I been doing?

What have I been doing?

What have I been doing?

I've been leading myself down such a destructive path. And I'm proud of you for realizing that because not a lot of people do. And the beauty in realizing that is you. You have so much possibility. to move in the way that you now want to, to figure out how you're going to define yourself, how you're going to build yourself up because you've, you've come to terms with it. Okay. Yeah.

I've been leading myself down such a destructive path. And I'm proud of you for realizing that because not a lot of people do. And the beauty in realizing that is you. You have so much possibility. to move in the way that you now want to, to figure out how you're going to define yourself, how you're going to build yourself up because you've, you've come to terms with it. Okay. Yeah.