Chapter 1: What personal experiences shaped Ellie Roscher's views on trans athletes?
Hey y'all, welcome back to Made It Out. Today I'm here with Ellie Rorsher, the author of Fair Game, Trans Athletes, and the Future of Sports. Yep. How fucking cool. It's pretty great. And we have just been gabbing. I'm already in love with you. In love with you right back. I'm so excited for our conversation today.
I want to start with a little bit about you and your background and why you felt really called to this subject.
Mm-hmm. The first job I ever loved, I taught high school. Yes. And it was at a Catholic high school. Oh, my God. But I have to tell you kind of what variety, like what strand. So I was raised Catholic. I was raised by these badass feminist nuns. Okay. So you have to imagine way back these women who kind of have this hunch that like they don't want to marry men. They don't want to have kids.
They don't want to like do the normal path. There was so much pressure to go down that path as a woman when these nuns were young. An option was to, quote unquote, marry God, live in intentional community with other women. Oh, my God. Do big work like get your Ph.D. or open a hospital or run a school. These are all like these are these. Exactly.
Chapter 2: How does teaching theology influence Ellie's perspective on fairness?
Exactly. These are the women who raised me. OK, we can kind of put Catholicism in a little box, which it often deserves to be. But I was raised by feminist nuns to be a feminist. Right. OK, so one of the things that they taught me is that when a policy comes down, when people are talking about a policy, you have to look to who the most vulnerable folks in your community are.
are they would kind of draw a radius around where they were located and say we're going to make sure everyone in this geographical circle is okay and how are the most vulnerable people in that circle going to be affected by this policy in what context were they talking about yeah so for example one of the social tenants is preferential option for the poor okay so you have to as a policy comes through you always have to ask how is this going to affect the people who are struggling the most with money
with stability, right? That is a seed that I just want to plant before I circle back to be teaching at a Catholic school. My first hour class in the fall one year, I meet a boy named Mark. He introduces himself to me. He's six feet tall. He's wearing a JROTC, like a military uniform because we had junior military there. And he's totally delightful.
And then I go to take attendance and his name in the attendance sheet was Catherine. And so I had this really interesting experience. He was my first trans student. At that moment, his parents weren't fully supportive of his journey. And so he still kind of in all the official documents had his birth name in the attendance sheet. And it became clear to me, you know, I met Mark.
I didn't meet a trans boy first, right? I just met Mark. I listened hard as a teacher, as an adult in his life who was like an important adult. And one of my... favorite parts about teaching high school is that I got to be an adult in these kids' lives who wasn't their parent, right? And so I became one of those adults for Mark.
And when he wasn't getting the support he needed at home, there were other adults in his life, I would say, including the theater director mostly, right? Who really advocated for him. He was so patient with me. I learned so much by being proximate to him. And he wasn't my only trans student. He was just my first. I had other students come out to me in different ways.
You know, I had two beloved students who came out to me on National Coming Out Day.
Oh, my God.
I love it. Just to be that type of adult who feels safe enough for that conversation was so special. And what class were you teaching? So I was teaching theology. Oh, my God. I know. So I was teaching the like the Jesus that kind of flips tables. Right. Like the Jesus that is kind of questioning the empire. Oh.
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Chapter 3: What challenges do trans athletes face in sports?
It's inferior. The writing is fascinating. You get to see the origin of like, I don't agree with that and I see it. So now I can engage with it and disagree with it. One of my favorite examples is if a man is looking at a female body of men writing about female body as inferior because they're not as efficient.
And the example would be that they bleed, that they have milk coming out of their breasts and they have blood coming out of their vagina. They're not efficient.
Hmm.
To look at a woman's body who can do that and say that that's deformed, that's the cool stuff. That's the life stuff that maybe there's some actual interesting jealousy happening there. But if you know that that was the logic, then you can contend with it and disagree with it. Wow. I do not think that my body is inefficient or deformed or inferior because it can do these things.
I think those are my superpowers. I think my body is amazingly powerful. I don't think that my sex organs define my sex. I don't think my sex organs define my worth. And I love being a woman. That doesn't mean that I belong in the home no matter what. Now remember who taught me, the nuns who just like didn't buy into that.
I think one of the roles that I have to play because I was taught in that way is straddling this. We have to talk about white Christian nationalism. And we have to talk about it in the context of trans athletes. I know we'll get there. This idea that men are inherently superior to women, when you add the God layer to that, that God created men superior to women, that's an uphill battle.
But I'm going to argue that that residue is still there. The other thing that got kind of formed in this early church is this idea that your mind is pure and your body is dirty. So to get closer to God, you transcend your body. You climb up out of it into your mind to get closer to God. Interesting. That's not my experience. Well, that's interesting because that almost goes with like Eastern.
You got it. You got it. So this is very white. It's very Western Christianity. Okay. where you have to ignore the body. You have to say your body is dirty to get closer to God. You get closer to purity. You get up into your mind.
Think about the pinnacle of the Greek society, which is where the early church formed, would be a man who's a philosopher or a politician who sits still, puts his feet up, and lives in his mind. That's the pinnacle. And they would say and write and publish that that's how you get closer to God.
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Chapter 4: How does society's perception of gender affect trans athletes?
They were petrified of their libido. And their solution then was to repress, suppress. And we still have that residue in the sexual abuse in the Catholic Church, for example. Right. Oh my God, this makes so much sense. That's the kind of thing that I would teach. Start my classes breathing. Noticing that we're breathing. Getting into our bodies. Taking a look at how Jesus centered bodies, right?
And restored bodies. And that this is not a dirty thing to ignore, but actually something to turn toward and revere. Be curious about.
Oh my God, whichever. As a queer person who is steeped in an environment like the church, someone doing the work that you were doing and saying like, hey, this ain't all what they're saying it is, is so life-changing and transformative. Can I give you one more tidbit? Oh, please, keep going.
I did not think this was where we were going, but I'm so happy. So I wrote my master's thesis on the Gospel of Mark, which is the shortest gospel. It's my favorite. It's the one that was written the closest to Jesus's life, even though he never met Jesus. So man has an agenda, has limitations, has an audience. So I studied it like a story.
And one of the things that I noticed about Jesus's body over the course of the story is that it becomes more porous. As the story goes on, the beginning of the story, Jesus walks around how we think about like God's power on earth, like superpowers, like, you know, talking to the storm and the storms calming, snapping his fingers and things happen, which was a certain type of power.
But people were responding to this kind of efficient, cold power with fear and awe. And that's not what he was going for. So over the course of the story, you see his body becoming more porous. There's a story where he uses a spit. to heal a blind man. You know, like that bodily fluid that's really intimate.
And it's like instead of just snapping his fingers or using his voice, there's power in his saliva. Then there's the story where the woman touches his clothes and she's healed and he doesn't even know it's happening. So there's literally power seeping out of his body involuntarily.
And so if you know then what we thought about male and female bodies, then what's happening in this story is that his body is becoming more feminine. Oh, it's seeping more like a menstruating woman or like a breastfeeding woman and his people's responding to his more feminine body with faith and love instead of fear and awe, which is what he was going for.
So you take a look, for example, at our politicians, right, who are inciting fear and trying to get awe. That's one type of power. Right. And that's how I would teach Jesus. I think that's fascinating that he would become more feminine and start seeping and dissolving and becoming more porous and having that be what he models as love. I mean, this is so fucking awesome.
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Chapter 5: What role does embodiment play in the experiences of trans athletes?
Yes. More.
Same. So it's like you almost have to do that work because you are not in the binary. That's right. So you have to think outside of the box and go, okay, I'm just going to embody more of this, and then you become more balanced, and then your energy field becomes more magnetic. I mean, look at us preaching. Let's go. Let's go.
You're fully human, right? Then people are drawn to your humanity. One of the things that makes me so sad about how we do gender, sex, and sexuality, the binaries are just so boring. And it's not a representation of nature. Nature thrives on diversity and variance. And I so often felt when I was being an obedient person,
girl who's trying to stay straight literally and figuratively that I was having part of my humanity cut off like an appendage right and so it is like as I queer myself there's so much joy in becoming more multifaceted and then it's so interesting who's drawn to that yes And who tries to police it? 100%.
So it really feels like this process of becoming disobedient in a very, very exciting way by like straying off of the straight line. Like that's the Latin base of queering. The interesting thing is that I was a gymnast through college. And I look back at my kind of coming of age and my confusion around that being as a gymnast, I could twist in a straight line.
So there was this kind of neither queer nor straight. I kind of couldn't find my place. And then I just let go of the boxes completely. And I just followed this sense of expansion over construction. Like instead of looking for a box to go in, I've just like let go of the whole system of box.
which is like what's so beautiful to me about the word queer a hundred percent right you also told me a story last time we talked about your time as a gymnast about an injury that you had yes can you share because I think there's a there's a tie there too there's a tie there too
This project, Fair Game, was so liberating for me. I somehow backwards designed my life as an author where it is my work to sit at people's feet and be a professional listener. You have that. Oh, thank you. You do that so well. And it's such a beautiful work. And what I realized in interviewing folks, people don't often get asked for the long version. of the story. Wow, you're so right. Right?
And I do think feeling heard is experienced very closely to feeling loved. And our society moves so fast, there's kind of not time enough where you feel heard. You know, so to set aside this time where you're going to sit, I'm going to ask you interesting questions, and I'm just going to let you go.
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Chapter 6: How can we create a safer sports environment for all athletes?
And we did an MRI, and he said, there's nothing wrong with you. But I knew my body so well, and I knew that there was something wrong. So I got a second opinion. I went to a hip specialist. He did an MRI, and there was something wrong. There was a piece of cartilage floating around in the joint, and then there was a damaged ligament that you only need in childhood.
So I did a really quick, easy 30 minute scope. He took out the piece of cartilage. Wow. He took the damaged piece of the cartilage down and I woke up and the pain was gone. I mean, it was unbelievable. Also frustrating.
So frustrating.
So frustrating. So there's this moment in time between when I made the second appointment and when I had the surgery where my dad was mad at me because he was, I think looking back now as an adult, I think he was embarrassed for his friend that his friend missed it. And in that moment, then my dad chose to believe his orthopedic surgeon friend over his daughter. Yeah.
And that moment didn't feel new. Think about in society how often we will believe men with credentials over the embodied experience of women. Think about what a huge problem it is that women's pain isn't taken seriously.
Think about what a huge problem it is that our society seems just to have given up on the fact that violence happens against women all of the time and that's just the water we're supposed to swim in. So that moment didn't feel new, but because it was my dad and it was so stark, it really broke my heart.
All I was asking him is to believe that I was in pain and that I knew that there was something wrong. And he let his embarrassment for his friend kind of trump that. Right. So all of this came up for me in interviewing athletes. A lot of my sports stories came up. For example, I went from the gymnastics season to the softball season.
There's so many interesting things happening culturally in terms of gender in those two teams. Right. So, so, so many stories. Right. The thing that came up for me was listening to this beautiful, long-form journalism podcast. Michigan Public Radio put it out. It was called Believed. And it does a deep dive into Larry Nassar. As a gymnast and a gymnastics coach, I knew I needed to listen to it.
And it's really, really beautiful journalism. For those who don't know, can you give just a brief? So Larry Nassar worked his way up. He was in the Michigan sports world as a doctor, as a trainer, and then also worked with Team USA and was eventually convicted of sexually assaulting hundreds of girls with something that he called a procedure. But the girls knew that it wasn't right. Right. Right.
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Chapter 7: What are the misconceptions surrounding trans athletes in competitive sports?
There are zero instances of a trans athlete causing harm to a cis athlete. Zero. But we are just... Hellbent on holding on to the story instead of believing the trans athletes when they tell us who they are. That's all they're asking.
And it ties to Larry Nassar because if we are going to place our attention in policing trans athletes as if they're the problem, that's all energy that could be going toward us. Making a sporting world that actually is safer and being extremely clear on who is doing the harm. It's not trans athletes. It's Larry Nassar. Right. And for years and years and years, we didn't believe it. Yeah.
Until we did. So the sporting world has a really long way to go, you know, and I think the GOP policymakers around these bans are saying we're doing this to protect girls and women. They don't have a track record of policies that protect girls and women.
Amen.
I am so deeply invested in building a sports world that protects girls and women. And it's very, very clear to me that trans athletes aren't the problem.
Can we talk about that? Yes. What does a safe world for athletes look like and where do trans athletes fit into the picture?
To create a safer sports world for all athletes, we can start with all girls and women. And that can be as simple as equipment, right? Like when you see the stats around how long it took us to do any sort of research about menstruation and clothing, bike seats...
Oh, my God. Sports bras.
I mean, it's just like it's so embarrassing that like we care so little about the body of women that we're just we are just expected to be small men.
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Chapter 8: How can we advocate for trans athletes and ensure their voices are heard?
So, I mean, these are tiny things that are really big things.
You know, it's interesting. I want to throw this out there because I don't know that we talked about this or you know this, but I actually come from a very sports driven family. My dad coached my brother his whole life and my brother played professional baseball. So I've kind of just I've been around the world and I know how antiquated it is. Yes, yes, yes, yes. how it can be.
You know, I will say my dad is a bit different in the fact that my dad's very in his feminine. Like he's, he's okay with that. He never, he was never, he's tough, but he was never the guy that was, he's not a numbers guy. Give you an example. Every year he would pick a kid who like, wasn't necessarily good enough for the team, but he wanted to like show that kid that you can do it.
You can be in the room. You So weirdly, I've been around a lot of conversations in the sports world and hearing what you're saying about women. There was a conversation that I was involved in about women in professional baseball. Yes. Specifically in the dugout. So like these are like trainers or, you know, and women being in the dugout.
And this conversation got pretty heated because it was like, why are you you don't belong here? which felt really interesting to me and i just i feel like this is relevant and i want to have this conversation with you because to me i'm looking at it as like a woman in the dugout like that's an advantage but absolutely we're in such an antiquated yes
world in that, especially, I mean, baseball, that's like the whitest, oldest, richest, you know, one of the richest sports. I just want to hear your perspective on this kind of conversation and argument.
We're seeing in all sorts of arenas that everyone does better when women are included in real ways. One of my books is about a free girls school in a slum in Kenya and we know that a country's GDP goes up the more girls go to school because girls who go to school and get to stay in school end up making more money and then they put that money back into the community. Of course I do.
I think about the high school that I went to. It used to be an all-boys school, an all-girls school. It merged. The school got better when it merged. Now, there's this argument it was an advantage to the boys, and we still need... Until things shift with the patriarchy, we still need to create affinity spaces for women to thrive, right? But...
That school got better when women were included in real ways. This is happening with sport as well. And I would say with the dugout argument, I wonder if there's this element of like, well, boys can be boys, but if there's a woman there, they have to kind of behave differently. I had a high school teacher who had this theory.
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