The Hidden Failure Around Podcasting Failure
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Podmastery: podcasting insights and advice for indie creators
14 min
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5 chapters
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Why did I miss my usual Monday podcast release and how did it feel?
So Monday came, Monday went, and I didn't publish anything. Not because I forgot, because I was properly buried under the kind of client work that eats you whole week and then burps politely and asks, what's for pudding? And somewhere in the middle of all that, I clocked a feeling, a feeling that I'd failed, which would have been fine. I mean, that's manageable. Failure is manageable. It's what happened next that really shook me. I started feeling like a failure for feeling like a failure. Because guess what? I'm the bloke who makes a podcast telling you not to do exactly that. Yeah, let that sink in. I had to. This is Podmastery Podcasting Insights, the show for people who've had a proper go at this podcasting thing, probably got episodes out, you know your way around the gear, but you can feel that there's a gear that you haven't quite found yet.
I'm Neil Valio, 30 years in radio and audio behind me, and still, apparently, entirely capable of feeling like a rank amateur on a day ending in Y. This episode isn't really about missing a deadline. Everyone misses deadlines. It's about the thing that you do next in your own head that turns a missed Monday into something a lot more, something deeper. Let me give you the truth about this first, and this is quite vulnerable. I publish on a Monday. That is my slot. I don't know why. I think it was really down to looking at the calendar and going, you know what? Monday is probably the most realistic day that I can get my ass into gear and get content published out there. For this episode, this one right now, this is publishing on a Wednesday because Monday got swallowed whole by the work that I do for the people who actually pay me.
And that's it.
What is the difference between the first flicker of disappointment and the damaging second feeling?
That's the entire scandal. There's no drama. There's no crisis. Nobody died. It just happened. Now, if you'd asked me on the record, on this very microphone I'm speaking into now, whether publishing two days late matters, I'd have told you the truth. It absolutely doesn't, not even slightly. The day you publish makes not the slightest bit of difference to a single download you receive. I'd state this entire show on it. Your feed doesn't know what day it is. Your listener isn't sat at home with a calendar that's got your face on it going, look at that, he's late. I know all that, I've said all that, I could even probably dig out some clips of me saying all that, and yet I still felt like a failure. And that's the first feeling.
Honestly, that first feeling is allowed, it's just data. You make a thing, you had a rhythm of making that thing, and you broke that rhythm. And you felt a flicker of disappointment.
Why does the day you publish actually not affect a single download?
Fine, that's human. Let that pass through you. But then there's the second feeling that they don't tell you about. And the second feeling is the one that does the most damage to your mindset. The second feeling goes something like this. You feel like a failure. You. Will you make the show about this? You've literally recorded the episode telling people the day that you release doesn't matter. And here you are sat in exactly the misery you try to get everyone else to avoid. What kind of fraud does that make you? That's the second feeling. Feeling like a failure for feeling like a failure. And here's the uncomfortable bit, the bit I'm not going to rush past just to make either of us feel better about all this, because it's a good learning moment.
Knowing the right answer to this does not protect you from feeling the wrong thing. Being the person who gives the advice doesn't inoculate you against needing it. If anything, it's slightly worse, because now you've got a second charge stacked on top of it all. It's not just, I missed it, but it's now, I missed it, and I should probably know better. Expertise doesn't switch that feeling off, it just loads it. It makes the bang louder. I am not immune to this. I want to be really clear about that because it would be very easy for me to stand here and pretend I've got it all sorted and you're the one who needs fixing. I haven't, I don't, and this week I was the case study.
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Chapters
5 chapters
1
Why did I miss my usual Monday podcast release and how did it feel?
0:01–2:15
2
What is the difference between the first flicker of disappointment and the damaging second feeling?
2:15–3:20
3
Why does the day you publish actually not affect a single download?
3:20–7:32
4
How does turning a podcast into a personal brand make missed episodes feel personal?
7:32–13:38
5
What psychological story do podcasters tell themselves that causes them to quit?
13:38–14:47
Speakers
2 identifiedMore from Podmastery: podcasting insights and advice for indie creators
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