Chapter 1: What challenges does Amika face as a firefighter in prison?
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Amika was sitting in the captain's office. She'd only been at the prison firehouse for a few months, and she'd already gotten reprimanded once. She was on very thin ice. If she got caught doing anything out of pocket again, she'd be sent back inside prison. The two fire captains looked at her and told her they'd been carefully watching her.
And they said she was getting promoted to the top position at the firehouse, engineer position.
We knew that she had a medical background, and any time that we have somebody that comes out here with a medical background is very helpful. So, yeah, she was very good at all that stuff. All medical stuff, not just being a midwife delivering babies. But she was just bright. And it's a leadership role here in the house for the other inmates.
You know, I was honored to be in that position, and I also shifted. I felt very responsible, and it felt important to me, and I didn't want to mess it up.
As engineer, Amika now held the lives of the crew in her hands.
You had to be really good at kind of learning about the incoming calls, catching what they said, because you have to be writing it down. That's my job, is to write down the incoming call and where we're going, and then navigating.
And then the other thing that I had to learn is how to do all the control panels on the fire engine, because I was in charge of the water and the pressure and getting the girls what they needed and everything. Basically directing the whole fire scene you're watching for any kind of like approaching danger or any risk that your crew is in.
She had to know every dial, every hose attachment, every protocol perfectly.
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Chapter 2: How does Amika's promotion impact her responsibilities?
So they stand there in their gear in the hot sun.
It's like in the middle of kind of, I would say, fields or something. there's like her personal belongings around. And so we're kind of trying to like look and see if we could see who she is. And the most vivid memory is the heat, the smell and the flies. It was this hot day, you know, like we're trying to like get the flies off of her and, you know, it didn't do much good.
And it's always strange to like be looking at somebody that, you know, is not there anymore and like trying to determine if their spirit is there, if it's gone and kind of like navigating, like dealing with a body. So it's, it's in the afternoon. It's like three, three o'clock school pickup time.
And so we see this school bus approaching like from down the road because it's a country road so we could see a ways coming and we hadn't draped the car yet.
Draping the car means pinning up these big yellow sheets around the scene of the accident so passersby don't see something traumatizing and also to protect the dignity of the dead inside. But this school bus was approaching down the highway and they realized they hadn't draped the car yet. The scene was still totally exposed.
It was like, oh God, like what if she has a baby on that bus? Can you imagine like these children rolling by and somebody recognizing a car that belonged to their mom?
So Amika and the firefighters scrambled to quickly get the yellow sheets over the car, and they finished just as the school bus was approaching.
The school bus rolls by. The kids have their little hands and faces plastered to the window because everybody's looking out to see what just happened. You know, they see the fire truck and the lights, and they see a vehicle run into a pool. And, yeah, that vision is vivid and clear. I don't think I'll ever forget that.
Like slow motion?
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Chapter 3: What happens during the tragic car accident Amika responds to?
I don't know. Like I see it from that side, but also it's like, Oh, that's my mom. Honestly, it's really hard for me, even now, to even relate that to my mom. And I loved getting letters from her, and I loved her, and she was always... It was different than anybody else, you know? It's your mom.
That's, like, how... to just reconcile this identity of who I was, this good person in their life for a long time. And now I'm like this fucked up person with this stripe. It would take me a long time and a number of calls of, you know, responding to these car accidents at the firehouse before all of it started to kind of digest and the impact of what I had done really sat with me.
And I would see it each accident.
Amika arrived at a cornfield. It was covered in mist and smoke, and the sun was just coming up.
As the fire truck pulled up, we could see it was a really bad accident. I mean, you could tell that there was kind of the beginning of the corn plows were just kind of wiped out. And we saw an overturned vehicle. And then we saw folks coming out of the beginning of the cornfield and running.
That was the vision of that call that I'll remember because they were covered in blood and also covered in dust from the fields. The car had been headed to a party. So as we're walking towards the car, it's kind of the spiky, broken, you know, pieces of the cornfield.
The car had flipped over and one of the passengers had been thrown from the vehicle. Amika rushed to check on the driver, who was still in the upside-down car.
And, you know, I do remember, like, kneeling down in kind of this, what was now muddy dirt, just kind of checking vitals and, you know, kind of assessing injuries that he had. I'm going to be okay. We're getting you out of here. You're going to be good. You're going to be good. You're all right.
And while she was talking to the driver and holding him still, a helicopter came and landed in the corn. It was loading up the passenger who'd been ejected from the car, and it was clear to Amiga that that passenger wasn't going to make it. So she held the driver's head in her hands, and she smelled alcohol.
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Chapter 4: How do the firefighters handle the aftermath of a fatal crash?
I mean, she would just be with you and make you feel okay without even really saying a whole lot.
I knew that Jodi and I had similar trauma and I knew how traumatic those first calls are. They're really hard to process. It brings up all your own shit. And I was a go-to for Jodi because she could relate. She knew I could relate to her
Jodi said Amika would talk to her about what it meant to forgive herself.
Just accepting yourself. And she's a very forgiving and just grounded person. And so she really, you know, gave a lot of self-love back to me.
But of course, working on her own self-love, her own forgiveness, was harder. The accident she caused would creep up on her.
You know, because I heard about the man that I had killed, but I never, I don't remember those moments. And I don't, like, it was a story told to me after the fact. It was this surrealness to it. Like, it just was so hard to believe. All it was was a picture to me of a body.
Can I ask, does that, did your relationship to that grief... go through different stages or evolve?
It did. It really shifted for me over the years. Um, initially it was a lot of shock, um, and grief and a lot of pain, physical pain that I would feel in my heart, in my chest, in my body. And it evolved for me over the years. Um, It was like there was different stages of it. It doesn't hurt in the same way that it used to.
And I've had to do, through each one of those stages, I have had to work on my own healing and figuring out what that means, right?
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Chapter 5: What emotional challenges arise when dealing with death on the job?
Which is moving in love and integrity. Those are my types of commitments to the world, to his family, and to my children. And I know it's not enough.
But even though they felt so much hesitance toward anything that might look like moving on, Amika and the women inside would find little ways, year after year, to allow themselves happiness, to find joy.
Christmas at the firehouse was like a little more kind of traditionally like Christmas maybe you would have at home. And they had a fake tree that they brought out. And it was right in the middle of our kitchen living area. And we got to decorate the tree. We'd get a turkey once in a while, not from a state turkey, but like, you know, a store-bought turkey.
We had lights up outside the firehouse too, which was so cool. Like, we just loved that. I loved seeing the Christmas lights like on the window that framed the firehouse. And then riding in the truck at Christmas time was also super dope because we got to go see Christmas lights and, you know, things we hadn't seen for years. We loved that because it was kind of, it was novel.
I mean, we were all just full of smiles. It made your heart feel some type of way, just kind of remembering what the outside world looks like during the holidays. We were getting a taste of something that we couldn't quite touch, but we were getting a taste. And then at the holidays, they would also do a crew picture and let us send them home to our families.
I remember my girls just freaking out. Like, Mom, we had, like, Santa hats on.
Do you remember sending the first one home to your family?
Yeah.
What do you remember about it?
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