it's a question we all ask ourselves. because the minute you heard it, you thought of someone.
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Did they ever really love you? It's a question that everybody asks themselves. I mean, I know you already asked yourself because as soon as I asked it, there was someone that popped into your brain and you thought no, or you thought yes. I don't know if she really loved me ever. I don't know. I don't think she did. I think she loved the fact that I gave her a lot of attention.
And the fact that I was accessible and able to be there and funny and cool. I don't think she really loved me for who I was. Because I never showed her who I was. Because my whole life I've been living a facade of trying to be a people pleaser. And it's hard.
It's a hard thing to come to terms with that the reason your relationships have sucked is because you've been trying to please people in your relationship. Isn't that the whole point of a relationship? It's for two parties to tango, for your lover to love you. And in my life, the only way that my lover accepts me is if I morph into something I'm not. I should be holding the whatever.
Did they really ever love you? They probably did. You just had no idea. They probably sat on the other side of the class and you never looked. They probably tried to tell you but you didn't listen. They loved you and you didn't even know. Plenty of times I've had people that I knew they had a crush on me, I knew! And I just, I just didn't. Didn't do it. Why? I don't even know. I just didn't.
But they loved me. And I knew they loved me for who I was, not for the facade I was trying to put up and for all the, you know, the gimmicks and all the, hey, look at me. Look at how I move. They loved me for me, bro, and that felt so real, so fresh. I believe in love. I've seen love. My parents love each other. They went to high school together.
In Poland, in communist Poland, they went to high school together and then thousands of miles away from the city of Kraków, they found love in a heartless place. We found love in a heartless place, famously, Rihanna. But they found love again in the city of Chicago. I mean, freaking like who would have guessed, right? Two Polish people found love in Chicago.
It's like freaking it's like walking to a pond and seeing a duck. so funny but they found love and they truly love each other and me well frankly frankly I don't know if I'm ever going to be lovable you want the honest truth I'll give you the honest truth because I know I'm not alone who would want this Who would want this? I don't have a stable life. I'm 23, I'm unemployed.
I'm burning through savings. I'm going to H-E-B and spending $100. I don't have a stable life. Who would want this? Who would want this sad excuse of a human being who has convinced himself that he's better than other people and there's something worthy to him. But really, he's inconsistent as shit. Doesn't go to the gym half the time. That's enough, but should I keep going? Who want me?
Who wants you? A lot of people want you. You have no idea. You have no idea people want you because you don't even want yourself. And if you don't even accept who you are and what you do and how you look, and you're expecting other people to do that, forget about it. Forget about it.
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