I used to ignore my own pain.I didn't see it as something I needed to address because I could always find a distraction to get me thinking about something else. it worked for a while, until suddenly I found myself deep in a trench that I couldn't see out of.we experience pain because our body wants us to address an issue. we feel pain emotionally because our mind wants us to just acknowledge that something isn't right.listen to yourself, you'll be happy you did.sending you lots of love and peaaaaaaaaaaace!https://stan.store/thezurkieshow
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I didn't realize how much pain there is in life. I didn't realize that it's immensely painful letting go of people, letting go of relatives, letting go of loved ones, letting go of the past, letting go of yourself. I'm experiencing a good bit of pain right now, a good bit of stress right I kind of feel in my own head a little bit.
I feel as if I've kind of made it into a bigger thing than it actually is. But everyone I talk to, they validate the pain that I'm feeling and they understand that, you know, I'm just trying to get through the day like everybody else, man. But something that's become so crucial in me understanding why I feel so much pain, especially in this time in my life where I should be enjoying everything.
I'm in my early 20s. It's awesome. Yay! Yeah! I've come to realize that when I follow the pain, I realize where the pain truly lies because the pain does not lie in my inability to wake up in the morning on time. It doesn't lie in me feeling as if I have not been as productive as I should be. It doesn't even lie in the fact that there's certain friends that I haven't caught up with in a while.
The pain lies in a lot of the things I wouldn't tell anyone. It lies in fear. It lies in The fear of missing out, the fear of making a mistake. I am so afraid sometimes to just make a mistake and it's so hypocritical because you need to make mistakes.
I even tell you guys that you need to make mistakes and I believe in it and I try to make as many mistakes as I can but I would be lying if I didn't say that I'm afraid to do it, even to this day. Pain is something that has helped me grow in my life. It is something that has been so intertrenched in a lot of the moments where I decided to change as a human being. You need pain. You need pain.
Pain is game. Game is game. But pain is game. Truly. You know, it's fuel. Fuel. I've talked about how hatred is fuel. Man, when you are in pain, you will do things that you never suspected you could.
And maybe your pain right now is the pain of, you know, a crush not hitting your line back on Snapchat or it's a realization that your friends are like laughing at you behind your back even though you're trying to pursue something great. Maybe your pain is the fact that, okay, you did let yourself go. You know, you're not where you want to be in your fitness journey. You don't feel healthy.
Maybe it's all of it. My only ask to you is whatever your pain is, you follow the pain. You drop it a follow. Because oftentimes this leads to the bigger question. You know, right now I feel a little bit of pain in the fact that I have stepped off the gas a little bit in terms of keeping up with my friends and keeping up with my relationships.
And I've realized that, you know, I'm feeling this pain and I'm feeling this dread because I neglected these things. That's why I'm in pain. It was my fault. It was my fault. I neglected it. And I knew in real time that I was neglecting it. I knew the entire time. I'm like, I'm not being smart about this. I should be calling my grandparents when I should call them.
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