Abbie Chatfield

And, like, I've still been, like, isolating a lot and not answering the phone.

But I think...

Even if I'm making little steps and little bits of effort to see people that I know will make me feel better.

Or at least if there's like a hope of it.

Because maybe it will make you feel worse going out for a walk with your friend or calling him up.

It might make you feel worse.

But like you also can always bail.

And I've not once needed to bail when I've been feeling like this.

I've always...

been able to keep pushing on through because the reality is you also can just get so stuck in your head that you feel like you're like it's crazy you feel like you're just like trapped in a whole other alternate reality and just helps you break out of that the rumination yeah yeah yeah because the rumination is the it's the it's the worse it's like you just can't get out of the thought pattern and then because you're it's like a feedback loop i think

Where like my brain is anxious about something and then my body feels anxious.

And maybe the thing that my brain was anxious about, let's say, for example, the video thing, even if I have quote unquote checked to a certain degree, even though it's not even there, but if I had gone to look for something and I go, okay, well, it's not there.

So I guess it hasn't happened yet.

I still think that's going to happen.

But then my body feels anxious.

Then my brain goes, well, why are you feeling anxious?

And then it tries to find a reason.

And then it's a feedback loop back and forth, back and forth, back and forth.

My body feels anxious.

My brain feels anxious.