Ada Wells

It never fades.

But in time, you learn to live with it.

Life grows in and up and around it, even though it waits below the surface and bubbles up just when you think you've forgotten it.

But that part of you that feels that pain,

or confusion or resentment.

That's the same part of you that feels love and tenderness and care.

Not all choices are permanent.

Do you realize in telling me your story, not once did you ever speak your daughter's name.

When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous trip to Italy.

You buy a bunch of guidebooks and make your wonderful plans.

After months of eager anticipation, the day arrives.

You pack your bags, and off you go.

The stewardess comes in and says, Welcome to Holland.

Holland, you say?

What do you mean, Holland?

I'm supposed to be in Italy.

All my life, I've dreamed of going to Italy.

But there's been a change in the flight plan.

They've landed in Holland, and there you must stay.

The important thing is they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place.