Adnan Syed

Like, no, I mean, honestly, like, not even exaggerate.

You know, so I can talk to her about Hay, and it's not going to be like, you know, like, I mean, she just, she accepts me.

You know, she accepted me, and I could talk to her about anything or write her about anything, and...

So a lot of times that's what it would be.

Well, I mean, because at the end of the day, man, I mean, who can I... I mean, I never should have let someone hold my car.

I never should have let someone hold my phone.

You know, I never should have been friends with people, you know, who... I mean, I don't... Who else can I blame but myself?

I mean, yeah, but... I mean, him, the police, the prosecutors, but... I mean, sure, what happened to me happened to me.

I had nothing to do with this, right?

But at the end of the day, I have to take some responsibility.

You know what I mean?

You don't really know the things that my younger brother went through, you know, what my family goes through, you know?

And I mean, at the end of the day, if I had been, you know, just like a good Muslim, you know what I mean?

Someone who didn't do any of these things, you know what I mean?

Then it's...

Yeah, so it's something that really weighs heavily on me.

I mean, I'm not, you know, no way I had absolutely nothing to do with Hayes' murder, but, I mean, at the end of the day, you know, it's, uh, I can't.

Yeah.

You know, you can accept bad things happening when they're earned.

You know, the irony of it is that my father and mother will probably sleep better at night.