Alaina Urquhart
👤 SpeakerAppearances Over Time
Podcast Appearances
The new environment of school was exciting, but it did little to curb his loneliness.
He was still cripplingly lonely.
During this time, Dennis had many one-night stands, but every time he met someone that he even had a little bit of interest in a long-term relationship with, they just rebuffed him.
It just wasn't working out.
He was clearly off-putting.
There's got to be something up there.
These disappointments caused Dennis to retreat deeper into his fantasies each time, which by then had grown very dark.
And of course that's speculative.
But it kind of makes sense.
And Dennis had a like fetish for deaths.
Like he was very interested in it.
That could make sex weird.
But by this time he had stopped resisting this and he started indulging it.
He said later, I put talc on my face to erase the living color.
I smeared charcoal under my eyes to accentuate a hollow dark look.