Alexandra Madison
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But I actually didn't start that until I found out that I was pregnant.
Because I started having panic attacks.
Yeah.
So we waited six months.
I waited until I found out that you were pregnant.
And then I was like, now it's now it's time.
So it was December.
We tried found out that we were pregnant in January.
And then I was very disconnected because I just like I built up this wall.
I did not want to feel anything.
I didn't want to get emotionally connected to just get hurt again.
But I will say towards the once I got past the gestation that I lost Leo, I did feel a little bit more like relief.
Like, OK, like I feel like I could connect a little bit more.
I don't know that I will say I felt fully better until she was here.
And I was like, oh, my God, like, of course, it did heal something inside.
When did you guys announce?
28 weeks or like 30 weeks.
It made it go so fast.
Oh, really?
The hardest part, it was so nice keeping it to ourselves until I was showing.