Allie

But I think looking back now, I'm like, oh, I think a lot of the times they're just saying that.

Where I wouldn't necessarily say anything like that or like gaze into their eyes lovingly if that didn't mean something to me.

Yeah.

And I realize that's a wide brush to paint with, but I feel like it's actually kind of true.

Yeah.

No, I mean, I think to your point, I was like, I went into this kind of naive and I also identify as a hopeless romantic.

And I think I just had expectations about what dating would be like.

Because I watched for a long time.

My whole 20s, I was single, watching my friends get in and out of relationships, talking about dating.

And I never really thought that was going to happen for me.

So when it did, I think I learned...

fast that it's not what i thought it was going to be which is like sad to your point about like balancing cynicism because i feel pretty jaded now and being open well you're hot you're 31 you said

Yeah.

Well, there's something interesting to me with all these experiences that I'm trying to figure out, like, how do I get better at this in the future?

And maybe there's not a way to do that, but it's like, I've had, and now with this last one, five of these experiences where we get like two months in.

And so it's not like they go on one or two dates with me and they find, you know, something about my personality or my personality.

future goals that's not going to work they like give me a few months and then once i think the stuff about weight loss or like things get more physical and they like figure out what that means like like it does feel like kind of funny to me that it because if it was something that was just personality and incompatibility why are they stretching it out that long well i don't think you get to know someone in two months to me earlier i don't know i i i imagine it's a it just feels funny because it's been like about the same time

Kind of.

And I mean, another part of this, which is a whole other tangent is that I'm also a virgin for like, which probably was clear, but that is like a whole other thing too, with like the inexperience and the weight loss.

I mean, I guess, but it doesn't need to turn off.