Allison Holker

I'm really proud of that. You know, there was definitely a moment where after the tragedy that I was really in doubt with myself of, will I ever like myself? Will I ever forgive myself? Can I ever forgive him? Could I ever get past this great loss and trust anyone again? Could I trust myself? Can I look at people and ever see the beauty again? I did.

I'm really proud of that. You know, there was definitely a moment where after the tragedy that I was really in doubt with myself of, will I ever like myself? Will I ever forgive myself? Can I ever forgive him? Could I ever get past this great loss and trust anyone again? Could I trust myself? Can I look at people and ever see the beauty again? I did.

There was like, I mean, it wasn't very long though. You know, there's a moment. There's a moment you feel really, really low. Can I ever be loved? Can I love? And then I quickly turned that around and said, no, that's not who I am. It's not what I've ever believed. And I'm not gonna let myself fall down that tunnel. I deserve love. I deserve life.

There was like, I mean, it wasn't very long though. You know, there's a moment. There's a moment you feel really, really low. Can I ever be loved? Can I love? And then I quickly turned that around and said, no, that's not who I am. It's not what I've ever believed. And I'm not gonna let myself fall down that tunnel. I deserve love. I deserve life.

I deserve to still experience this with my children, and they more than anything deserve that. And I can't be an example telling anyone to pick up and wake up and go about a day and see the beauty in life if I'm not doing that myself. So I quickly turned the energy of victim mentality and woe is me. And I was like, I don't live this way. That's not who I am.

I deserve to still experience this with my children, and they more than anything deserve that. And I can't be an example telling anyone to pick up and wake up and go about a day and see the beauty in life if I'm not doing that myself. So I quickly turned the energy of victim mentality and woe is me. And I was like, I don't live this way. That's not who I am.

And I gave myself that permission to be fully embracing and accepting of life and love because that is what we're here to do. And that's what I want to preach. And that's what I want somebody to tell me. And that's what I'm going to tell someone else. And that's what I'm going to tell my own personal being to be. Every single day. And I have chose love.

And I gave myself that permission to be fully embracing and accepting of life and love because that is what we're here to do. And that's what I want to preach. And that's what I want somebody to tell me. And that's what I'm going to tell someone else. And that's what I'm going to tell my own personal being to be. Every single day. And I have chose love.

And with giving myself that permission, it has found me again. And it's brighter. And it's more beautiful than I could have ever expected. And it's healthy. And it's shiny and wonderful. And it gets to be a beautiful thing that my kids get to share with me as well. And they get permission now to do that for them.

And with giving myself that permission, it has found me again. And it's brighter. And it's more beautiful than I could have ever expected. And it's healthy. And it's shiny and wonderful. And it gets to be a beautiful thing that my kids get to share with me as well. And they get permission now to do that for them.

Well, even before I get to the tool. Yeah. I will say, and I know a lot of people are gonna have questions about why I say this and the way I say it. With Stephen's passing and the way he passed and how loud it was around the world, I had so much noise around my life while I was in my grief, in my darkest moments, crying, confused. Everything was so uncertain in my life.

Well, even before I get to the tool. Yeah. I will say, and I know a lot of people are gonna have questions about why I say this and the way I say it. With Stephen's passing and the way he passed and how loud it was around the world, I had so much noise around my life while I was in my grief, in my darkest moments, crying, confused. Everything was so uncertain in my life.

Everything was taken from me. I had lost what I thought was the love of my life. My kids no longer had their father. I was so confused. I had no explanation. I had no closure. I had no idea why. I was having so many opinions thrown about me that it was my fault, that I must have seen something, that I must have missed something. That I must have been the cause, that my children, what happened?

Everything was taken from me. I had lost what I thought was the love of my life. My kids no longer had their father. I was so confused. I had no explanation. I had no closure. I had no idea why. I was having so many opinions thrown about me that it was my fault, that I must have seen something, that I must have missed something. That I must have been the cause, that my children, what happened?

How did they not see anything? There must be a hidden agenda. There must be this over here. There must be the Illuminati. I've had so many accusations thrown my way. And there was just so much noise everywhere. Questions, doubt in myself, doubt from family, doubt from friends everywhere. People I thought were the closest people to me turning their backs on me.

How did they not see anything? There must be a hidden agenda. There must be this over here. There must be the Illuminati. I've had so many accusations thrown my way. And there was just so much noise everywhere. Questions, doubt in myself, doubt from family, doubt from friends everywhere. People I thought were the closest people to me turning their backs on me.

Some of the people I didn't know that would be there with me coming to be at my lead, to be at my side. It was so confusing and so overwhelming. And then there was a morning I woke up and I still believed in who I was. And with all the naysayers, with all the noise, with all everything that was being said about me, I still believed in me. And I never doubted that.

Some of the people I didn't know that would be there with me coming to be at my lead, to be at my side. It was so confusing and so overwhelming. And then there was a morning I woke up and I still believed in who I was. And with all the naysayers, with all the noise, with all everything that was being said about me, I still believed in me. And I never doubted that.

And I never lost out on my integrity. Because I never called out anyone else. I never said mean things about anyone else. I've never tried justifying anything for anyone. I've just stayed in my own heart, in my own head, and healed myself. And that's where this became my superpower. Because anyone could say anything about me that they want. And I know it will never change me and who I am.

And I never lost out on my integrity. Because I never called out anyone else. I never said mean things about anyone else. I've never tried justifying anything for anyone. I've just stayed in my own heart, in my own head, and healed myself. And that's where this became my superpower. Because anyone could say anything about me that they want. And I know it will never change me and who I am.