Allison Holker

trusted you you were in a safe place when you spoke with him and you could he would never judge you for what you were going through and that's what was so beautiful about him is he he opened his heart to anyone and everyone anything you were going through and and he would make time for you and he'd make space for you and he would just listen he was such a great listener and

And you would always walk away feeling so much better. And I know if he would have told himself the things I've heard him say to other people, he could have helped himself. But with that role he took on, I think he was really scared of people not wanting to do that anymore if he maybe was honest about what he was going through.

And you would always walk away feeling so much better. And I know if he would have told himself the things I've heard him say to other people, he could have helped himself. But with that role he took on, I think he was really scared of people not wanting to do that anymore if he maybe was honest about what he was going through.

And you would always walk away feeling so much better. And I know if he would have told himself the things I've heard him say to other people, he could have helped himself. But with that role he took on, I think he was really scared of people not wanting to do that anymore if he maybe was honest about what he was going through.

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Because then just knowing his personality and how much he loved that and cared for people and some of the things he's now said and things I have read that he's wrote, it's he feared if he wasn't that hero for other people and if he maybe was honest about what he was going through, maybe they'd question going to him.

Because then just knowing his personality and how much he loved that and cared for people and some of the things he's now said and things I have read that he's wrote, it's he feared if he wasn't that hero for other people and if he maybe was honest about what he was going through, maybe they'd question going to him.

Because then just knowing his personality and how much he loved that and cared for people and some of the things he's now said and things I have read that he's wrote, it's he feared if he wasn't that hero for other people and if he maybe was honest about what he was going through, maybe they'd question going to him.

Like maybe we would trigger him and we can't trust talking to him about it because maybe it would get him into a low. if we're honest with him about what they're going through. And he liked being that person for people. And that's why I do, I really believe that he always wanted to help people. Even in his lowest moment, he thought he was helping.

Like maybe we would trigger him and we can't trust talking to him about it because maybe it would get him into a low. if we're honest with him about what they're going through. And he liked being that person for people. And that's why I do, I really believe that he always wanted to help people. Even in his lowest moment, he thought he was helping.

Like maybe we would trigger him and we can't trust talking to him about it because maybe it would get him into a low. if we're honest with him about what they're going through. And he liked being that person for people. And that's why I do, I really believe that he always wanted to help people. Even in his lowest moment, he thought he was helping.

Yeah. I think I always grew up thinking that if I just power through and, and same for him, like if we're, we wake up and we say our gratitude and we say our affirmations and it really does pump you up. Yeah. That's why I'm saying I still do it to this day and I see so much beauty behind it.

Yeah. I think I always grew up thinking that if I just power through and, and same for him, like if we're, we wake up and we say our gratitude and we say our affirmations and it really does pump you up. Yeah. That's why I'm saying I still do it to this day and I see so much beauty behind it.

Yeah. I think I always grew up thinking that if I just power through and, and same for him, like if we're, we wake up and we say our gratitude and we say our affirmations and it really does pump you up. Yeah. That's why I'm saying I still do it to this day and I see so much beauty behind it.

And he was the same way we, we had like dry erase markers and we'd constantly be writing on our mirrors and writing stuff to each other to pump each other up. And You know, if we were tired or sad, we'd be like, oh, let's go read this book together. Let's listen to this podcast together. And we both loved that and generated so much of who we are from that.

And he was the same way we, we had like dry erase markers and we'd constantly be writing on our mirrors and writing stuff to each other to pump each other up. And You know, if we were tired or sad, we'd be like, oh, let's go read this book together. Let's listen to this podcast together. And we both loved that and generated so much of who we are from that.

And he was the same way we, we had like dry erase markers and we'd constantly be writing on our mirrors and writing stuff to each other to pump each other up. And You know, if we were tired or sad, we'd be like, oh, let's go read this book together. Let's listen to this podcast together. And we both loved that and generated so much of who we are from that.

And I still do think there's so much beauty in it, but we didn't have the balance of it. We didn't have the balance of it. I think we we also both enjoy our work so much and became such work heavy people. And he was such a work guru that I think in order to mask going through his deeper rooted feelings, I think he would keep himself busy.